Cauterize - Something Beautiful
Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why
I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead
I watch the trees loose autumn leaves,
I see them blowing in the breeze,
Images falling through my mind.
Floating outside time.
Open the window feel the cold,
Snowflakes in silver and in gold,
And the light fades away into dark, like my heart.
Bittersweet memories
That`s all I`ll take with me,
No matter what I know now I`ll get by.
Bittersweet when we meet,
That`s how it`s come to be,
`Coz I`m stronger now and I won't run and hide.
POP was great!!
Throughly enjoyed it..
Esp the slow march..
-Smiles sadly-
Am sorta gonna miss waking up at 6+ on Saturdays..
Heading down to train.. And camps...
Gonna miss punishments.. They made me stronger..
Gonna really miss that time we had climb into that millipede infested drain to pick up
strands of Maggie..
Hahahahaha
Yeah
Gonna miss the store too.. Where we slacked...
And POP traings!
With all the shouts of 'Car!' & 'Four wheels!'
DSP Geraldine Tan's cool!!!
Her hair's soooooooooooooooo bloody short!!!
Bwahahha
We were saying that Ms Low'd love to book her!
Aahahhahahaha
Sat out on the wooden benches in the moonlight/spotlight..
Messing around..
Haha
Then was reluctant to head home so waited with Kiat for her mum..
Met Adel dotter outside school and she said something that meant a lot to me...
Suddenly, I felt extremely sad..
Haix..
I mean I know that I've gotta move on sooner or later..
Budden this's really sad.. Leaving friends behind..
-Sighs deeply-
That's life I guess?
Was typing this halfway when all the power shut down..
Wenta check the curcit breaker... But it was still working..
Then looked out the corridor and the lights were out!
So were the lights in our whole block and the streetlights and the blocks opposite!!
Ahahhaa...
I was kinda overjoyed for some reason..
Played with the flashlight and made shadow figures..
-Grins-
Sorta re-living childhood memories?
After mum and dad lighted some tea-lights, started playing with the fire and wax!!!
Whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie! FUN!!
Bwahahhahaha
Smsed everyone for the hell of it too!
Ahhaha
Some ppl weren't affected and they told me that the power shortage was caused by some
natural gas disruption or sumthing..
AHhahaha
WHO CARES???
:D
It was hella fun!
First I got high on POP,
Then got high on blackout!!
Bwahahhahaa
Yuppers!
Ok..
That's it for me..
Shall go change the furries's litter box...
Ciao!
Hey hello!
It's back to school tmr...
-Sighs-
I'm sorta hooked onto the idea of skipping it..
Because of the 4 periods worth of English..
And I HATE english.. Or rather, the English teacher..
Bloody woman gives English teachers all round the world a freaking bad name..
She tarnishes the subject, like blood stains on white satin..
Bitch
Grrr..
I'd rather go through 12 straight periods of Chinese than face that Lim Lee Eng..
And those who know me, even remotely, know how much I can't stand Chinese..
So yeah.. It's that bad...
Today brought Jas down..
First time I'm doing it solo..
Actually, it's kinda fun.. y'know?
Just me & her..
-Grins-
Hahaha
Cut Oats's and Barley's nails too...
Hahah..
They were soooo cute..
:)
Love 'em..
-Hugs-
Slept till 9.30 on Sat morning..
So when i finally woke up, I stared at the clock, jumped out of bed, then thought, Eh,
training's over..
Hahaha
Yeah, I'm that lazy..
-Evil grin-
After tmr, I MUST MUST get down to studies..
Prelims.. So close...
And Chinese Oral's next week!!!
-Shudders-
Well, best be off now..
See ya all tmr! :)
Hey hello!
Up at 2.25 in the morning..
Hahaha
Well, the England-Portugal match is about to start soon..
Can't wait!
Haahah
Anywaies, bouldering was fun!
In a my-hands-are-blistering-and-my-body's-aching kinda way..
Though we didn't with crap, it was a hell of an experience..
Budden doubt I'll get to go again..
-Frowns-
Ahh well..
Guess all that pain and bruising was worth it..
-Grins widely-
Even got a free massage just now..
Aahahaha..
Yuppers...
Dad's still asleep..
He's supposed to watch the match with me..
Aww well..
Since was gonna watch the match, decided to study in the middle of the night with my
headphones blasting rock..
Y'know, it works wonders...
-Grins-
Still, gotta thank Lao Po from keeping me awake..
Hahaha
Yeah man!
Now i'm wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiide awake..
-Sighs-
Prelims are 5? less than 5 weeks away...
And I've only done what? Nothing.
Know I'm screwing myself up like hell fuk budden..
Haix..
Never mind.
It is the passion flowing right on through your veins
And it's the feeling that you're oh so glad you came
It is the moment you remember you're alive
It is the air you breathe, the element, the fire
It is that flower that you took the time to smell
It is the power that you know you got as well
It is the fear inside that you can overcome
This is the orchestra, the rhythm and the drum
Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma forca que ninguem pode parar
Com uma forca, com uma forca
Com uma fome que ninguem pode matar
Hey hello...
So tired now..
Nursing a sore body, a couple of blue-blacks and a potential
fever..
Oh, and a killer stomachache too..
And I've got this rock-wall com tmr morning at bloody Jurong..
-Groans-
It's either due to the fact that training's become easier or it's
because we've all become strangely numb towards the pain..
Till the next morning when we try to pull ourselves from bed of
course...
Hellish, it is..
-Sighs-
But maybe today's training seemed easier because of someone's
presence?
-Shrugs-
Bloody stomachache.
Oww..
Wonder how I'm gonna get up that darned wall..
Well, at least Fri's a free day.. To study.. So it ain't exactally
free anymore..
Hahhaha
Then Sat's yet another full-dress rehersal..
It's quite sad actually..
I've just made my white uniform with brown oil stains white again..
Then they say there's another full-dress rehersal..
Grrr...
Damn stomachache....
Haix..
Budden it's off to the club which equals to bball, swimming, gyming
and possibly badminton..
-Grins-
Sarah: Hey.. yeah man.. that's the sad, and hot, part.. Hahaha
Dawnie: Eh, how come u didn't go for yday's training ah? so many
sjab ppl din go...
Ryan: Now how'm i supposed to tie my ass up in a knot? :D
Tmr
= full-dress POP rehersal
= WHITE number 1 u, ironing, polishing badges, polishing boots
= 4.5kg rifle
= oil
= DIRTY white number 1 u
= washing
= irritated kid pissed off at ALPS
= tired, aching body
= sleepy
Today
= POP rehersal
= strain on already-strained out legs
= ALPS yelling at us
= frustrated cadets
= more cursing and swearing
= probability of getting kicked outta POP
= even more frustration mixed with some horror and curses
= reluctance to go for tmr's training aside from the 'full-dress' fact
Hahah..
Yuppers...
Hello!
It's late out and I'm online chatting away!!
ahhaha
Well, decided to update cos this's the LATEST EVER i've stayed up
online to chat..
And my mum hasn't woken to yell at me!
So that's a first!
Bwahahaha
Well, yeah..
Owe it all to REBBY and Jasmine too..
Cos was helpin 'em out with their blogs...
But it was fun..
-Grins-
Enjoy doing this HTML blog shit..
Number 1 u's hanging in my room now..
All white and clean...
and it's gonna get dirtied on Tues..
Full-dres rehersal..
-Shudders-
Gtg!
My parents's room door just opened!
See ya!
Heya everyone..
Just back from A Maths..
Gotta head back later to collect our Number 1 u!!
-Grins-
Can't wait!!
Dunno how I woke this mornin
Haha
Last night stayed up till 1+ smsing lao po & watching shows that make you laugh till
your bloody sides hurt..
Really gotta find the time to watch 'em more..
Hahaha
Ohoh!
The O.C. last night was...
Electrifying!
Esp that last bit..
Woah.. Damn, I'd kill to be in Marissa's place!
Bwahhahaha
But it was one hell of a kiss!
Was cheering and hooting as they kissed..
Finally yeah?
-Grins-
Wow hey!
This's the first time that my tag-board's recieved so much tags!!
Thanks you all!
-Hugs-
Must tag more often k?
:D
Jia: Thx for tagging! u takecare too!
Chel: Thanks man! Naa.. think a pic with the whole cast looks better.. then can see how
Ben stands out from the rest! -Winks-
Lao po: Hey! Dunno how you found out! Hahahha.. Thx for last nite btw.. :)
*sarah: Ya! followed in ur footsteps.. Bwahahha.. hope they wun kill us next week.. haha
Aggie** bro: Hey bro! haha.. what can i say?? -evil grin- takecare dude!
1.30 date: Heya! Thanks!! Anywaies, was gd to see u tt day.. hope to meet up soon ya?
Eunice: no lah.. ain't TT great..hahah
Actually, it's kinda sad..
Like leaving old memories behind, where they'll be forgotten in the dust
Like closing a book and starting on the second one
Like..
Ok, I'm exaggerating.
But it still feels sorta sad..
Bittersweet almost...
Yeah
Hmm.. now there's sumthin to think about
.Memories.
Heya!
This one's brand new and totally designed by me!
I'm damn proud of myself cos went from 'What's HTML?' to this!
Hahahaha
Yuppers..
Ok, so why did I choose today?
Well, it's special..
-Winks-
And if you don't know why I ain't gonna tell ya..
-Grins-
Hahahaha
I am wiped today..
Not only do I feel that someone had trashed me with a baseball bat,
My mind's also screwed up with integration..
Haha
Cos today had to endure 6 full hours of A/E Math..
-Phew-
Thank god I'm still here yeah?
-Grins-
Tired..
Had loadsa trouble taking the stairs today..
My limbs felt as though they've been ripped apart, then sewed back together..
Oww..
Ha
Cleaned Oats today too..
After I ran my hand thru her once, my hand came back looking furry..
Like some sorta were-bunny!
Bwahahhahaha
It's quite nice actually...
Shall take a picture once day..
-Grins-
Well, hope ya'll like this template..
If you've got any improvements in mind tag me yeah?
Yuppers..
See ya!
Oh my love, please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life
I ripped out his throat
And called you on the telephone to take off my disguise
Just in time to hear you cry
When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourned the death of your bloody valentine
One last time
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
There was...
Police and flasing lights
The rain came down so hard that night
The headlines read "A Lover Died"
No tell-tale heart was left to find
When you mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourned the death of you bloody valentine
One last time
Oh my love please don't cry I'll wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight...
He dropped you off I followed him home
Then I stood outsid his bedroom window
Standing over him he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do 'cause I'm so in love with you
Oh my love please don't cry I wash my bloody hands
And we'll start a new life
I don't know much at all, I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
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