Cauterize - Something Beautiful
Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why
I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead
Hello!
Yes yes..
Study!
Yes yes..
Prelims!
PREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELIMS!!
Grrr...
-Rubs eyes-
Only slept 4 hours or so last night..
Deadbeat..
OC was funny..
-Grins-
So cute..
Ha
Furball!!
-Hugs-
Tired...
Moody day..
Slipped on the court..
But it was fun
:)
Thought about lotsa stuff..
Moody..
Moody meeeee....
We have come home
From the bloodless wars
With sunken hearts
our boots full of pride -
From the true massacre of the soul
When we have asked
'What does it cost
To be loved and left alone'.
We have come home
Bringing the pledge
Which is written in rainbow colours
Across the sky - for burial
But it is not the time
To lay wreaths
For yesterday's crimes.
Night threatens
Time dissoves
And there is no acquaintance
With tomorrow.
The gurgling drums
Echo the stars
The forest howls
And between the trees
The dark sun appears.
We have come home
When the dawn falters
Singing songs of otherlands
The death march
Violating out ears
Knowing all our loves and tears
Determined bt the spinning coin.
We have come home
To the gree foothills
To drink from the cup
Of warm and mellow bridsong
To the hot beaches
Where the boats go out to sea
Threshing the ocean's harvest
And the hovering, plunging
Gliding gulls shower kisses on the waves
We have come home
Where through the lightning flash
And the thundering rain
The famine the drought.
The sudden spirit
Lingers on the road
Supporting the tortured remnants of the flesh
That spirit which asks no favour of the world
But to have dignity.
Ha!
I studied Leeeeetwitcher!!!
-Bleah-
G'night all...
Memory - Sugarcult
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
I'll tear us apart
Can I be your enemy
Losing half a year
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
Tearing out my heart
I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappear
Can I be your memory
So get back, back, back to where we lasted
Just like I imagine
I could never feel this way
So get back, back, back to the disaster
My heart's beating faster
Holding on to feel the same
This may never start
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings insincere
Can I be your memory
Can I be your memory?
//I miss you...//
FINALLY!
There's a got-nothing-to-do-and-probably-has-no-pathetic-friends tagger who's
invaded my board!!!
What took you so long to find this man???
Ahhaha..
Now my board's gonna get way more interesting...
I only ask that, even with your probably limited vocabulary, you come up with more
original lines to create havoc okay?
If not it'll just be like all the other blogs..
B-o-R-i-N-g
So tagger, I post this challenge to you: Make this blog unique and special ya?
-Grins-
You all probably think I'm waaaaaaaaay nuts..
Well I am..
:)
Gotta get buried under a pile of books soon...
Prelims're only so few days away that I can count the days with my fingers...
-Shivers-
And 'O's are only 1, 2, 3 months away..
-Shudders-
Mum's cooking a nice teochew dinner now.. Yum yum..
Then shal nap awhile before burning midnight/morning oil once again..
Haven't been doing much of that..
:)
Kies,
Everyone takecare, espically the 'O' Level people..
Don't get yourself sick alrite?
Prelims're too close for that..
We must 'jian chi dao di' and keep our chins up..
Only 3 more months of agony and books..
Then comes the relaxation we oh so deserve..
See ya all!
Kiat: Hahaha.. yeah.. I meant noone saw me go over the back gate! :D
Log & John: Helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllo!!! Ahahaha.. must tag more kies?
eh john, didcha see Mischa Barton's pic??? Hee... Log, that last tag wasn't me btw.. I'm not HORNEY!!! :p
Dawnie: Hello! Finally updated ur blog... Still owe u ur pic.. haha
Laopo: -Grins- Now I think I'm hooked onto stealing public property and scaling
fences and gates... Bwhhahahaha
*saRah: FINALLY! I was wondering if you forgot about me.. hmmph... ahhah.. kidding..
Yup yup.. you takecare and study hard too!!
I told you how I felt
I told you what it meant
But I still haven't changed your mind
I know that you're afraid,
You're frightened of the pain
But you can let down your guard
Cause when we run, we hide
We deny what's inside
What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
Don't make the same mistake that people often make
And miss out on a chance for love
You've got to make your move, you've got to make it soon
Cuz you're dying inside
Cuz I'm a man, but I cry
I have fears, I won't lie
What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
Come on baby, you know it
Girl anyone who looks can see that I'm right
There's a chance, we should take it
Or regret it for the rest of our lives
What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
What good is a heart, if you're not gonna use it?
What good is your love, if you're too scared to choose it?
If your heart is beating, then it's for a reason
If you're not even willing to start, what good is a heart?
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Hey
Yeah..
Haven't been online in awhile..
-Smiles-
Aren't I good??
Well, not exactally..
Haha
This morning, was woken up by mum and forced to go to school...
But decided to play truant instead..
So hid out at the staircase landing of my block, but decided to go to the carpark to hang..
Read my Buffy book there till 8.30
Then gave my home a ring to check if anyone was still around..
To my utmost horror, my mum picked up..
0_0!!
So in the end, decided to head to school in the freaking rain..
Was drenched by the time I got there..
Thankfully, there weren't any teachers around so slunk to class unnoticed.....
Then found out that I didn't bring my file and that noone was at home!!!!
Grr....
Hahahaha
But it was damn hilarious..
Laughed and laughed about it..
Lucky Jaz was nice and changed the register for me..
:)
Thanks Jaz!
Yuppers..
Tried to sneak outta school during recess thru the side gate but the uncle was there
so that also ruled out the church gate..
Then while heading to the back gate, nearly bumped into Ms Lim herself!!!
Got the freaking shock of my damn life!!
Waaah..
Lucky she was damn blur and didn't notice me..
So ran down to the back gate and climbed over it..
And now I'm here!
Hahaha
Nuts? Yeah, I know..
Gonna see the doc later on..
Back's aching like damn fuck!
-Grins-
Today was seriously interesting..
Throat's much better and all..
Just didn't wanna go for English and History test..
Yes yes, it's THAT bad...
Hahahaha..
Yeah..
See ya!
Psst! Check out the national day colours!! Ahahhahaha...
Feli & Kiat: Dunno what the hell you 2 are saying but it seems damn funny..
Bwahahhaha.. Nuts lah both of you..
Chel: Heyo! You owe me the music codes!! ahhahaha...
Young skinhead, they call you hooligan
Just because you don't make, any sense to them
But the blood that runs right down your wrist
Don't come from a knife, but the cuts on your fist
Your scared up knuckles and faded blue jeans
Are the colors you wear and the life that you've seen
You tell the truth, look people in the eye
Don't live your life in no baggy disguise
Hey hello..
Had Eng Prelim Oral today..
Actually, Angie Ong ain't that bad..
She gave me tips on how to improve, told me where I scored and where I screwed..
:)
Not bad..
After Oral, shot around awhile then went home for breakfast..
Oh, got an early early x'mas pressie from mum and dad..
A Nokia 3100...
-Grins-
Now can sms freely..
Haha
After breakfast, went to take prints *:) and watched da bimbo show..
Farrrnie..
Hahahaha
Linsay Lohan's prettie...
lol
Studied a bit after the movie then headed to town to meet my folks for dinner..
After which, we ended up cuttin my uncle's cake at Clarke Quay..
Studied at Starbucks till 11 while my folks wenta get a kick outta seeing ppl scream
their asses off the reverse bungee..
:)
Doubt will burn midnight/morning oil today..
Gotta send the 2 furries down to Heeren later..
:`(
-Sighs-
Hey, if ya'll can make it then go check it out at Heeren yeah?
Got all sorts of animals there up for adoption..
Hopefully someone nice'll take care of them...
-Looks at Oats & Barley-
Yeah..
Doubt'll be able to concentrate on much later..
-Hugs the furries tight-
Love ya two loads and loads... -Smiles sadly-
Why, are, these feelings all locked inside?
Can't, do much else to compromise
All those feelings I had for you
Why the disregard?
Lost something you never had?
I was close to you
But you were too close to home
Time to wake up, and,
Time to realise,
That, you're not always on your own
I'll always be there for you
There's, no, limit to reasoning
Because, now, I understand everything
And, I hope everything's okay
Why the disregard?
Lost something you never had?
I was close to you
But you were too close to home
Time to wake up, and,
Time to realise,
That, you're not always on your own
I'll always be there for you
No matter what we go through
I'll always be there for you
No matter what we go through
Know that I'll always know you
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Today's not a good day..
Fucked up, screwed day...
Bad, bad day..
-Sighs deeply-
Huge thanks going out to those who helped me out today..
Namely Lynnie, Min, Lena & Rebby..
Thanks you all... Wouldn't have gotten thru today without you..
Fucking red-eyed and teary and all screwed up..
Gonna miss them like hell...
But I got till Sunday..
Then...
Shit.
Look guys...
As much fun as all this is to me (and it's really damn fun), I think we're all just
wasting our bloody time because we all know that nothing's gonna change what I type
here..
So I suggest that we either drop it and keep our comments inside when we see things we
don't like, or we go head on till someone breaks..
And let me tell you.. this's damn enjoyable for me.. :)
So what's it gonna be folks?
B'cos I'm the sort that you've gotta earn respect from..
And not to boast but once you've lost my respect, it's gone for good..
So.. It's your move guys..
Take your pick..
Call it even? or
Go head-to-head?
And Shurong.. Sorry i misinterpreted what u typed.. thx for clearin tt up...
Btw everyone!
I've got nomore braces!!!
-Grins widely-
Wahahahahha...
But it feels damn weird..
Like there's sumthin missing..
Hahaha
Nutters..
Kiat: Geez man! Hahah.. Betcha they're thinking abt dislodgin ur guts rite now! haha..
kiddin!!
Owner: You siao ah?? Flood my board.. ahahahah
Furry: Heyo! finally shifted to a blog.. ahaha.. Naah... nothin's going on... just
having fun creating a little havoc.. -winks-
Laopo: No what! I think it's hilarious!!! Bwahahahhaa...
Ah Lian: Hey mei, dun so depressed abt wadever's goin on kies? If you got anythin juz
call or cum find me ya?? -hugs- I'm ALWAYS here for ya.. :)
Look, if you all wanna start a war of words here that's fine with me...
But this is my bloody blog..
You wanna comment, fine..
You wanna scold me, fine..
If I've offended anyone, fine..
I'm sorry..
But you have no right to censor what I want to write..
Because it comes from my heart.. good or bad..
If I don't like you, it goes here..
I don't care if you read it or not and I don't give a shit if you're pissed or not..
It's my blog.
If you all ain't happy about what you see here, then close your eyes..
It's not like I'm forcing you to read this or anythin...
I don't like Ms Lim and I've got my reasons..
And I'm just as sure that all of you do not like at least one teacher..
So what gives you the bloody power to make me change what I wrote?
If you don't like it then just piss off alrite?
Leave me the fuck alone..
And yes Shurong, I'm a bitch and I know it.. no need for reminders...
okok..
So I didn't go study..
As in study books study kinda thing..
I studied the web..
-Grins-
Ahahaha
Got this from Lena's friendster
Your Secondary School: CHIJ SJC
1. nickname in high school?
charlaalaa, fishbone, boyboy etc.
2. Sport you were into?
basketball, soccer, badminton.. anything i guess..
3. Had a gang of frens? How many were with you?
yeah.. quite a few peeps..
4. Best subject?
english..
5. Worst subject?
chinese
6. A teacher you owe life lessons to?
MRS SUSAN NG!!! She is the best! AHaha.. treats all of us like her kids and dishes out
care and concern on a gold platter.. if people don't like her, they're weird...
7. A teacher you wanna kick in the ass?
Arman, turtle chow, a.tan.. can't think of any more at the moment...
**Describe In One Word**
8. Sec 1 : Nerd
9. Sec 2 : Nuts
10. Sec 3 : Relaxation
11. Sec 4 & 5: 'O's!!
12. Your best friend was?
don't really have any but a bunch of 'em are close...
13. Your worst friend was?
Err....
14. Cafeteria food sucked?
some of it's screwed and others overpriced.. but still like the duck rice stall.. ahhaha
15. Most hilarious school rule.
all lockers must be locked, or the contents will be cleared out. bwahahha
16. Wore uniforms?
Yeah
17. How was the prom?
Dunno.. it's not happened.. hope it juz within our sch tho..
18. Who was prom king and queen?
prom's not happened yet dumbass...
19. Any achievements?
Dunno.. HAha.. Ain't really busting my brain on this y'know?
20. Were you popular?
Dream on
21. Best song that reminds you of high school?
The Smurf song!! lena & sze came up with it.. I think.. -shrugs-
22. Unforgettable sec school crush?
-ahem ahem-
23. Most embarrassing moment?
Well, i've got quite a few... but shan't name 'em.. hee..
24. Memory you'd like to forget about sec school?
falling for people...
25. Best memories?
Romping around with the entire gang.. :)
26. Any regrets?
Screwing my studies in Sec 1, 2 & 3... ahahha
27. Would you like your future child to attend your high school?
Doubt so.. the school's screwed up..
28. Were the bathrooms clean?
They USED to be.. but with us arnd, things either get broken or broken.. ahah
29. How were the lunch boys?
Errm, it's an all-girls school...
30.Song that best describe ur sec sch life?
Scholarship In Punk by Guttermouth
Hahaha..
Yeah..
-Yawns-
Tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.
Feel like skipping school and going outta study..
Oh, got a bball date tmr..
-Grins-
Am soooo looking forward to it..
Check this:
.: I love history because I have no future :.
-Laughs-
Happy Belated Birthday Ah Lian!!!
Ah Lian!
See!! I keep my word...
Said I was gonna dedicate a WHOLE entry to you!
AHahha
Am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry i missed it yday..
Couldn't come online..
:(
HAHhaa..
Bud I know u'll forgive me right?
-Grins-
HAhaha
Well, this year we're taking our 'O's so my wish for you is to STUDY BLOODY HARD and do
well yeah?
Hope that you'll be able to get into the school & course that you want so next time
can 'wei she hui zuo chu gong xian'!!
Ahahahhaa
Yuppers..
As for me, gotta go study now..
Also wanna 'wei she hui zuo chu gong xian'..
Bwahhahwahaha..
See ya tmr Ah Lian!!
-Hugs-
-Yawns-
I'm wiped..
-Grins-
But I'm a proud-of-myself wiped...
Ahahahah
Last night,
Stayed from 10 to 4 to study..
Then slept, woke at 6 and slept again till 8..
Then it was off to meet my study-buddy for the day..
Studied till 3.40..
Skipped Mavis..
Did 4 chapters of Bio notes..
-Pats self on the back-
Hahaha
Then came back had tution from 5 to 7..
Wanted to congratulate myself for studying so hard so fed the furries then took off biking..
It's amazing when you think of what you can accomplish with energy, a bike and 2 hours..
Went to loadsa places like:
Woodbridge Mental Hospital (10min)
My old house downstairs (20min)
Xinmin Pri
Sze's old place (25min)
Bowen Sec (30min)
Rebby's area (35min)
Serangoon Stadium (40min)
Lena's block (50min)
Hougang Stadium (65min)
Monfort (70min)
Tiang's block (75min)
Valen's 7/11 (95min)
Compass Point (100min)
Home (110min)
Hahah...
Am saving Feli's house and Gardens Circus for another time..
:)
Feli! If I go to your place I'll pop on in and say Hi okay?
-Grins-
Was damn ahead of schedule... So stopped for dinner..
Yum yum... Slurpee!
AHhaha
Yeah..
Eh!
Dunno what the 2 of them doing at my feet... So ticklish!!!
:)
Noone's home but meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
And I'm bored..
Everyone's coming back later around 11..
-Yawns-
If mum's bringing me out tmr then I'll sleep...
Thinking about studying again if I'm not going out..
Anyone interested?
I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed a stuuuudy budddieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
Ahahhaha...
Back hurts.. Ooo..
Sze's on the phone with me!!
Hello Sze!!!
Hey hello!
Today, we got to choose our Pe electives..
Obviously, I picked basketball..
And yeah, we're playing some sort of tourney...
Mrs Ku went like ' Your favourite game right?' right in my face..
And I'm like 'Huh?? How does she know me???'
HAhahahahah
Yuppers..
Studied during our free Lit period..
Lena took a pic of my weird hair.
HAhahaha
Think it's funny..
-Grins-
Yeah
Chinese 'O' Level Oral afters sch..
Was okay at first, but when the thing actually started, I started to show some signs of
panic and immense fear...
Yeah..
When Anthea went out, I really let all my freaking out..
Stared pacing, restless.
Couldn't sit still at all..
Oral itself was not too bad..
Didn't fuck up too many words and all..
And the invidualators were really nice..
Espically the younger, chioer one..
Bwahahha
Went down to the SJAB room where we played a few games with the peeps there..
Somehow, they managed to take off my shoe and hide it..
So they made me walk round with 1 shoe and the other barefoot to look for my other shoe..
Played the cold, colder, warm, hot game...
It was kinda fun lah..
They seemed to enjoy it so played along with 'em..
Yuppers..
Then sat and chatted and they danced and all..
Ahahah
Gtg sleep.. Nites!!!
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