Cauterize - Something Beautiful
Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why
I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead
I thought I left it in the dust
But my heart's telling me the same old things
There's no one I can trust
I've tried to drown my sorrow
I tried to ease the pain
Tried to stop myself chasing after
A love that was, clearly, in vain
It seems that now I'm holding on
Yet trying to let go
It's not easy to choose between
This, I think you should know
I know I'll get over this someday
And see my rainbow again
I know I'll find my angel someway
And you'll be just 'a friend'
But for now I'll sleep dreaming
The same dreams I'll dream once more
And I'll still walk the same old roads
I took once, before
Getting over you will be tough
But I'm gonna to give it a try
And when I'm finally over you
I'll just say, "Goodbye".
patchw0rk ©
SR-71 - My World
The fastest man in the world, fast asleep at the wheel
Nobody wants to be alone, so how did I get, here
When I look at you, (when I look at you)
I see him staring through me
A wink and a smile, cuz he's been inside of you
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Is he everything to you?
Does he make you high, make you real?
Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel?
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world,
There is only you
I can still find the smell
On my clothes and skin
I can still see your face, when your sleeping next to him
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Tell me does he
Make you high, make you real?
Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel?
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world,
I have my fears, you let them out
Now I wrap myself around you
Like a blanket full of doubt
The darkness burns,
The sunlight stings
He's your everything
Does he make you high, does he make you real?
Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel?
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world,
You make me high! You make me real!
You make me cry! Now you know the way I feel
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world,
There is only you
Hey
-Sniff sniff-
Back to update!
Okay.
Canada's coming really soon!
Hahhaha
Aunt Helen keeps calling.
Sup with that?
Ah well.
Grad night's getting close too..
So's that -ahem ahem- event the next day.
Arrgh.
This blocked nose's killing me.
Well went out with many many 'golden friends' yday.
Err...
It was dead.
Sorry folks, but it was dead.
Basically sat around and did squak.
Yep.
But that was sorta good cos I didn't waste any cash..
:)
Were supposed to mosh at the gig but the gig was dead too.
But they played really well..
Left earlier cos my stomach was growling and mum had pizza waiting for me..
-Grins-
My cousin might be selling his electric.
But doubt so lah..
He loves it too much..
Hahahha..
So might be going to look at electrics on Mon with kiakin..
Yupyup.
Was supposed to go thresh court today.
But was lazy with a capital L..
Been whacked these few days.
Dunno why.
Maybe side effects??
-Shrugs-
Day before went biking with szelaalaa..
But it rained like crap and there wasn't any sun.
So all I got outta that trip was a sore ass and busted shoulders.
That bike sucked to hell!!
Horrible creation.
Hahaha..
Alright, I gotta head off.
It's family day today.
Gonna look at cameras..
And maybe get something for Canada.
See ya folks.
"All Hail The Heartbreaker"
Today, at 1516, it was over...
It's all over!!!
Now I'm bored..
Hee hee..
Not that bored but it's weird.
All of a sudden I've got nothing to do.
Nothing to read, nothing to study.
Nomore uniforms as well..
Sorta sad actually...
Prefer this sort of 'forced' change rather than if you have a choice...
Those who know me should understand..
:)
Anywaies, there's some pissface asswipe tagger on my blog!
Hahahha
So you all better watch it okay?
Kiat!
We got sumone to piss off!!
-Grins-
Been waiting for something like this to happen for ages!
Hey tagger, what took you so long?
Just to keep you up to date with stuff.
If you're gonna impersonate me, might as well know me first right?
Okay, here goes
I like biking, basketball, skateboarding, badminton and basically any kind of sport. Oh, I hate running long distances but I love sprinting. I've currently got two foster rabbits, Woody and Landy. The two previous rabbits I fostered were Oats and Barley, Oats being the one I loved more. Umm.. My dream is to be a vet for the good of all animal-kind (yes, you can laugh) and I'm also gonna get an electric guitar soon. Yup. Also, I'm gonna be overseas for a couple of days in Dec and probably won't update this. More, more... I love my clostest buds and we hang out a lot.. It's usually Queensway or town or someone's house. Yeah. Err.. Well, if you need to know anything else just ask yeah?
Actually, I pity you. You probably have no friends and no social life that's why you're trying to pass the time but tagging people's boards. Furthermore, you probably hate youself and your name, that's why you resort to using the names of others. It's actually quite sad and I really do feel sorry for you. You're just wasting your pathetic life in front of a computer screen typing away at the keyboard. Anyway, even if I wanted to impersonate someone, I'd do my homework first and not just type any damn thing that comes to my mind. And I thought people were getting smarter? Or maybe it's just you huh? -Shakes head- Pathetic. Sad sad soul. Ahh well. I'll pray that you'll have the sense to go make some new friends and not spend the remainder of your life staring blankly at some computer. Good luck pissface tagger!
JANG JANG JANG!
After 'O's...
After 'O's...
After 'O's I can get it!
Finally!
Yaay!
Damnit, I can't wait!!!
-Grins-
Got cheated..
No snowboarding..
Cos no snow yet..
Hee hee.
But Auntie Helen says I can ice skate there..
Hmm..
Maybe lah..
Hopefully mum'll let me board in the Rockies...
Oh, she wants to send me to Aussie to stay with her friend for X'mas..
Don't really mind.. Cos,
1) She's got a GERMAN SHEPHARD
2) She loves animals
3) Can tan there
4) She's cool..
:D
But like, I'll lessen the time I get to spend with my pals..
So yeah..
Haven't said anything yet..
What do you think?
Two holidays in a month.
Sounds like fun huh?
tag tag tagme.
I'm beat..
So damn beat..
Just back from the event at Great World City.
Hell it was fun.
Made many many new friends..
Y'know, they're all in their 20s or 30s, but still act like teens!!
:)
They're nice people..
Hahha..
:)
Met those people in the afternoon then we all went window shopping.
Saw my Vans shoes!!
Just drooled..
Hee hee..
Then they went to catch a show and I went back to help out..
Sales wasn't that bad..
Think we made at least 500 or 600 bucks today....
:D
Ohoh!
They've got Oats's and Barley's pictures up on the pocket calanders!!!
My god, I was so damn happy when I saw the pictures..
Arrgh!
Miss my little sweetheart..
'sbeen so long since I last saw her..
-Sighs-
Mum and I were talking about 'borrowing' Oats from Steven and Claire for the next two days..
Then can show her off at the event..
-Grins-
Yup yup..
Miss her so damn much.
My feet ache like crap..
Been standing since 8am..
lol!
Tired tired...
Anywaies, might be going down again tmr and maybe Sunday..
Yeah..
So feel free to pop by and check out the stuff we're selling okay?
The event's on from 10am to 10pm
HRSS is really running low on funds..
It's more or less broke by now...
Hahahahaha..
-Yawns-
Okay, need to go rest my throbbing feet.
tata.
I've been bleeding well from this old wound
Cleaning it with salt so it will still feel new
Sometimes eyes turn black sometimes scars are tracks
But everytime youre gone, I wish that you'd come back
And everyone watched me waste myself
And everyone cheered at last
All of the found it comforting
Its better its me than them
I think I'm doing well from what they say
If takin both my belts and shoe laces away
But I believe in luck I think I do
But I believe for sure if ever I see you
I've been fanning flames from these old coals
Feeding them with tender and hoping they will grow
And I've been savoring what I can't hold
A blind belief in goodness that doesn't seem to show
I've been bleeding well from this old wound
Cleaning it with salt so it will still feel new
Shit
My bunnys ate something poisonous.
I'm worried.
Skate The O.C.'s cool..
Damn you monkey John.
Hey
Just back from History.
All heil Hitler!!
Was in high spirits when I got home.
Guess what I found.
The two little grey furbals were outside their playpen.
-Frowns-
And then they looked so happy.
Hahhaha..
So did a sweep of the house, and found that they pee-ed in my sis's room and ate some of the plants in the balcony.
-Shakes head-
So shooed them back and went to work mopping.
After I was done,
Found Woody outside again.
And she looked at me so innocently, couldn't bear to scold her..
-Grins-
So cute!
Haha..
Now, we have to lock the playpen up so they don't run amok.
Haha..
Woody's trying to get out again.
She's tugging at the gate..
Hahahahhaha..
So silly...
These two, you either love 'em or hate 'em..
:)
Shit.
Snowboarding's gonna cost me.
Hope Celes can snowboard..
:)
Then at least won't have to pay so much..
lol.
Jammed 5 hours of History.
Hope it's enough.
Off to Gameboy now.
Toodles.
Last night I had a dream,
The one about anything.
It made me smile.
It made me scream.
:)
I'm so tired..
-Yawns-
Mugged at Macs today..
Got really squishy fast so we left..
Went to see my little salt-and-pepper furball.
You should've seen her jump and chase me!
-Grins-
Brought her downstairs where she scared the living daylights outta a Malay family!!
I swear if I was in a bad mood today, I'd actually let her catch up with them and freak them out..
But yeah..
Still, wish she did catch up with them before I caught her..
Maybe they've gotta cut off their leg or sumthin if a dog touches it..
-Grins hopefully-
Ahh well..
Had dinner at gramps's palce..
Was trying to pick out fish with a spoon cos was lazy, then gramps took his chopstick and got some fish for me..
Made me feel like a kid again..
:)
Walked home after that cos had half an hour to spare before bunny dinner.
My discman died on me so it was more of a quiet walk..
Bloody dark too..
Thought through a lot of things.
Yeah..
Hey, do you realise that I always think thru things but I always make the same mistakes after??
Strange.
WHO
.. makes u smile
Some people, all animals.
.. pays your cellphone bills
Me.
.. do you think loves you
My bunny.
.. do you want to slap
-Evil grin- IT, and some others.
.. is the first on your phonebook
Err.. wait, I check. Adel Chief.
WHAT
.. don't u like about in this life
Pain, failing, messing up stuff that's right.
.. do you want to do right now
Bury myself and die.
.. is it that makes u smile
When my bunnys or animals I know do funny stuff. -grins-
.. bothers you
IT. Nagging. Pink.
.. color signifies your personality
Blue?
.. do you like in your house
My room and my bunnys.
WHEN
.. is your birthday
9th May.
.. did you last saw ur school
Yday.
.. will you get serious with your life
Hahaha.. Stupid question.
.. do you think will there be peace
When every damn person on the planet dies and goes to bloody hell.
.. did you do your last prank
Just now.
WHERE
.. do you live
Sengkang.
.. is your school located
5 min away.
.. do you hang-out the most
Compass, Bishan, Serangoon.. Arnd there.
.. were you born
Mount E. Orchard road.. Hee hee
.. do you plan to have your end of year holidays?
CANADA!!!
.. are you now
In front of the com.
HOW
.. would u define love
-Sniggers- Keep dreaming.
.. do u want ur burial to be
Hmm.. Haven't really thought about it.
.. freaky can you get
Try me. You'll see.
.. often do you listen to music
Whenever I can.
.. do you live your life
Concentrate on tmr, forget yday.
.. interesting are you
Err.. -shrugs-
Had lil Woody here at the com to study Micky Mao with me just now..
So cute..
When I turned on the speakers, she was wondering where the music was coming from.
-Grins-
She's happily chewing up her toys at the moment.
:)
Still, I think about Oats everyday.
No matter how much I love Woody and Landy, Oats will always be special.
I miss that furry, big brown big-eyed, overfed, sweet, adorable, lovable fluff-ball.
-Sighs deeply-
Really wanna see her again.
I heard that Steven and Claire re-named her..
Oh well, she's not my bunny anymore.
Yeah.
:'(
Kyer lost another tooth today..
Whole mouth was bloody.
And what's more, she looked really really happy.
Hahah..
Silly girl.
Eyes are feeling heavy
But they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin
But the air is never cold
Even though you're next to me
I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything
For you to call your own
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking
Like a weight
Something I've be keeping
Locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free
With each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you
But it's all so different now
Things that I was of sure then
Have filled me up with doubt
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking
Like a weight
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Couldnt stop my heart
It's always beating
Sinking like a weight
How am I supposed to feel
About the things I've done
I don't know if I should stay
Or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you;
Things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew
I threw it all away
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking
Like a weight
And I can feel you breathing
And its keeping me awake
Couldn't stop my heart
It's always beating
Sinking like a weight
Drowning in the rain?
My feelings flooded, weak and numb
But overcome with pain
I'm trying to call out to you
But it's silent, no-one can hear
I'm fading, falling far away
I only wish that you were near
Here to save me, to rescue my soul
Grey, and empty, and cold as stone
But you're not here, you never are
So, I'm drowning all alone.
Smiling a bit now..
Thx Wena!!!
-Hugs-
Sorry Kiat..
I'm so fucked up right now.
All the fucking memories.
Tearing their way into my mind.
I was doing so well until today.
Until I watched tv.
Rotted and did fuck today.
Went to organise the files on my com and found some chat logs.
When I read through them, I realised that she was right. She was bloody right all along.
I was the one who fucked it all up.
-Shakes head-
I made my day even more gray by listening to all the sappy sad songs and looking up past stuff that I wrote.
Fuck.
Then was happily eating and watching the 7 o'clock.
Then, when the last part of the episode was showing, I realised that it bore a stark resemblance to what I went through not so long ago.
And I realised what whould happen in the next few episodes.
I just wish my life could be like a drama serial.
Stuff happens, but it always works out.
It always works out.
When I realised the resemblance, I just gaped.
After like, 5 seconds, I snapped back to here and now.
I couldn't eat anymore.
Threw my food out with my heart.
In the trash.
I can't concentrate on anything.
So messed up inside.
Nobody can tell, nobody can see.
Nobody realises, nobody knows how I feel.
's all just so fucked.
If you're gonna rip my heart out,
Could you use a knife that's dull and rust in color.
(Once I die) there will be no way that you can cover,
That scar.
It's hard, I know.
And if I get a little blood on you,
Finally the world will know you're guilty,
(know you're wrong)
Of taking everything you've gotten from me
No heart, it's hard. I know.
Mighty king of avondale
I just can't let this go.
Real life ain't no fairy tale
I just thought you should know.
When you're finished with the surgery
I really hope that you will turn to me
And tell me all about the fun you had
When you were cutting up, you were cutting up.
Mighty king of avondale
I just can't let this go.
Real life ain't no fairy tale
I just thought you should know.
Living like a fairy tale
The mighty king of avondale
It all went to his head, this royalty.
I stuck a knife into his back.
Inventiveness is what I lack.
He's always hanging up on loyalty.
Mighty king of avondale
I just can't let this go
Real life ain't no fairy tale
I just thought you should know
Sometimes, you just wish you could turn back time.
Hey
I'm dead beat..
Completely wiped.
But happy.
-Grins tiredly-
Busted up Lit..
-Shakes head sadly-
Alfieri came out..
Was supposed to study that when I got to sch but had to run home for entry proof so there wasn't time..
-Sighs-
Then... SNOW!
Why did SNOW had to come out???
Arrgh!
So that's just fucked..
Just hope my Alfieri's okay..
-Shakes head sadly-
Went to study with Min early early at Garden's Macs today..
Did quite a lot cos I was sitting outside so didn't see all the Macs customers looking round for seats..
Hahaha..
Then went to Lyn's house...
Sweets smeels great today..
-Smiles-
Kyer chewed my hand..
It's reddish now..
With some teeth marks.
Hahah
She grabbed my hand in her mouth, then dragged in all around my body trying to dislocate it I think..
Here comes the best part,
She was happily chewing on my hand, then suddenly, my hand turned green..
That little bugger vomited her $2.60 bone onto my hand..
-Growls-
Then, she gave me a sheepish 'oops-did-I-do-that' look..
Silly girl..
-Grins-
Am gonna get a haircut tmr!
And PIZZA!!!
Yippie!
:)
Siao-ness..
Me and Kiat're messing with Joel..
Hee..
Poor guy..
I had a friend from SJI and Joel was his name -oh
B-I-M-B-O, B-I-M-B-O, B-I-M-B-O and Joel was his name -oh!
Hey
Lit ppl having our 4 hour break before 2 Lit papers now..
-Grins-
So made it home and crammed a bit before coming here..
Yup yup..
Damnit, I miss my sweets like crap..
Everyone's complaining that Maths was easy..
I chose to stay silent.
Yup
Feeling screwed up..
Got a fever last night..
When mum asked what happened, told her I studied too hard and she had nothing to say..
-Evil grin-
Besides that, there's still a question of my problem..
Yes yes..
Stupid, supposedly insignificant, irritating problem.
I kinda made a move so I guess I'll just sit back and see how the game's plaed now..
-Shrugs-
Can't do nothing about it anywaies..
Damn, so tired..
How'm I gonna cope with two more papers today and A Maths tmr??
-Sighs-
Looking forward to the weekend..
Get to see my sweets!!
:))
Happiness.
Yup
But gotta get well before I can go over..
Don't want her to get sick y'know?
Kk..
Better go cram..
I've 40 minutes more..
See ya'll
'O's have started.
And I'm online!!
lol
Anywaies, today's ss was okay..
I got lucky and Switzerland came out..
Doubt my luck'll last so I'd better go cram.
Riight..
I've got a problem.
People close to me ought to know..
Or they probably heard me yelling/bitching about it..
Hee hee..
-Sighs-
Still have no idea what I'm gonna do..
I just don't understand it...
It's so confusing.. Hard to read y'know?
Ahhh well..
Ran out of batteries in the Game Boy..
Used like 4 trip As yday & today..
Damn expensive..
But, but, my Quilava's now a Tyclosion!!!
Lv 44!
So bloody fucking happy!!
-Grins-
Yeah yeah..
Me & min haveing this phrase where we regress to or childhood days..
Started like, two weks ago I think..
Now I'm on GTA, Neverhood(sorta), Sonic, Neopets & Pokemon...
-Grins-
Hey, it is fun y'know?
I guess the phrase came during the wrong time..
Hahhaha..
p.s: if anyone's still on Neopets, let me know!!
lol!
Miss my sweets..
:(
Can only see her on Sat or Sun..
-Sighs-
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts they race from self-control
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours, to fill or burst
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer
The words are hushed, let's not get busted,
Just lay entwined here undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
Hey did you get some?
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close
They can't hear, so we can get some.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours, to fill or burst
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer
Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together
The streets were wet and the gate was locked
So I jumped it, and let you in
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew that you meant it
That you meant it, that you meant it
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.
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