Monday, February 28
Today can be described as the best and/or the worst day of my life.
Well, not the worst cuz I've had worse than today but bad.
Results?
I guess I got what was expected of me..
Average. Definately not good.
All I can say to those who haven't taken their 'O's, esp Feli,
Please, please study.
Stuff happened too.
Makes me re-think my actions and feelings and all.
So frustrating all.
And that Jenny didn't help either, helping plant more "what if"s in my head (not that I'm blaming you Jan).
-Sighs-
Sometimes I swear, I'll never get through this.
Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Sunday, February 27
-Headbangs-
I'm still feeling the after effects of the lchc gig.
And I'm still hungry.
Thank you Anthea!
I'm sorry Anthea!
Thank you Kiat!
I'm sorry Kiat!
Thank you Sze!
I'm sorry Sze!
Now that I've made all my thank yous and apologies, -Headbangs-
The bands rocked.
Really.
Listening to Slayer and Dream Theatre now.
-Headbangs-
Wish I didn't feel hungry.
Bye, shower time.
-Headbangs-
Good luck tmr for all who need it.
Note: 'THE GREEN ONE', does not refer to any piece of clothing (eg. thong or bikini). It's a Green Gibson!
Extra note: I didn't think about her at all today!!! Uhh.. Till now.. But YAAY anyway.. :)
Note after the extra note: The taxi uncle was so nice.. He charged me a dollar less cos we talked about 'O's results and his son's work and his son's 'O's in the taxi..
I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
'Cause I can't stand to see you
And I don’t want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear
I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again
With you.
I finally figured out that you're not coming back
And I'm not going anywhere.
You were the one with all the faith
How did you let it slip away?
That's right, I'm blaming this all on you
And the little things you didn't do.
We both knew that you were stronger,
Could have fought a little longer.
You didn't hold it tight enough.
You lost your grip and I slipped right through your fingers.
No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.
Tell me again about those better days.
This silence hurts me more than anything you could say.
Broken knuckles, broken heart.
I fell in love then fell apart.
You tried to run, I tried to hide,
Still we managed to collide.
Fell so hard, matching scars.
Held you close, felt so far.
Hearts beating out of time.
You're screaming with no reason and no rhyme.
No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.
So I will save this last breath
For words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying,
But you're killing me.
Just when the wounds start healing
You're there to break me open.
Watch the blood spill. I'm getting used to this.
I'll clean it in the morning.
No more sleepless nights alone.
This bed is better without you.
No more waitin' up for calls.
I've got nothin' left to say to you.
So I will save this last breath
For words that I won't scream.
I don't feel like dying,
But you're killing me.
I wonder where you are.
Please don't come around tonight
'Cause I can't stand to see you and I don't want to fight.
Gimme one more drink and I swear
I think I'll be ready to make the same mistakes again
Without you.
Wednesday, February 23
Okay
I'm getting tired of the ignorant.
For everyone reading this, please take note or else I'll flare.
You all should at least know I feel VERY strongly about the topic of animals.
HRSS = House Rabbit Society of Singapore
aka Rabbit Society / Rabbit Organisation
Okay?
Got that??
Well, you'd better get it.
Oh! I need volunteers for 27th March.
Please, pretty please if you're free,
It's for very, very good and furry causes with little goo-goo eyes and long ears..
:)!
Anyway, it's at the skate park so I'm certain Shroom's already volunteered and Log's said yes.
And Rebby (If you read this)! You're supposed to volunteer! (I think)
Hahahahaha..
Okay, Log just said no..
Some people just can't seem to make up their minds huh?
Monday, February 21
Lyn made the bkgrd.
I made a change.
Depressing day really.
But I think I've more or less gotten over it.
Anyway,
HRSS meeting at my place yday.
Hwee Shin came too.
And the whole group.
Pretty fun people.
:)
Yep.
Crank up your speakers for this one.
If only we could fly
Limp Bizkit style
John Otto
Take 'em to the Matthews bridge
Can you feel it?
My g-g-generation
Get up!
My g-g-generation
Are you ready?
Do you know where you are?
Welcome to the jungle, punk, take a look around
It's Limp Bizkit fuckin' up your town
We downloaded the shockwave
For all the ladies in the cave to get your groove on
And maybe I'm the one who flew over
The cukoo's nest, well guess who's next? (who)
Generation x
Generation strange
Sun don't even shine through our window pane
So go ahead and talk shit
Talk shit about me
Go ahead and talk shit
About my g-g-generation
'Cause we don't, don't give a fuck, and
We won't ever give a fuck
Until you
You give a fuck about me
And my generation
Hey kid, take my advice
You don't want to step into a big pile of shit
Captain's drunk, your world is titanic
Floating on the funk
So get your groove on (groove on)
And maybe I am just a little fucked up
Life's just a little fucked up
Generation x
Generation strange
Sun don't even shine through our window pane
So go ahead and talk shit
Talk shit about me
Go ahead and talk shit
About my g-g-generation
'Cause we don't, don't give a fuck, and
We won't ever give a fuck
Until you
You give a fuck about me
And my generation
'Cause we don't, don't give a fuck, and
We won't ever give a fuck
Until you
You give a fuck about me
And my generation
Who gets the blame?
You get the blame
And I... get the blame
Who gets the blame?
You get the blame
And I... get the blame
But do you think we can fly?
Do you think we can fly?
Do you... think we can fly?
Well I do
I do
FLY
DJ Lethal... Bring it on!
Oooh yeah!
Come on!
So go ahead and talk shit
Talk shit about me
Go ahead and talk shit
About my g-g-generation
'Cause we don't, don't give a fuck, and
We won't ever give a fuck
Until you
You give a fuck about me
And my generation
'Cause we don't, don't give a fuck, and
We won't ever give a fuck
Until you
You give a fuck about me
And my generation
Oh yeah
Saturday, February 19
Feli's SUPRISE 17th!
Err..
For those who actually look at the pics, 'the hand' is Jenny's.
HAHAHAHA...
It's 2.30am..
Royal Rumble ended..
JOHN CENA SHOULD HAVE WON!
Wtf.
Feeling fucked up all over again.
Seems after all I've been through, I'm back at square one once more.
__|__
Friday, February 18
I'm wiped.
But today was a blast..
Feli didn't know what hit her..
-Grins-
We should really do stuff like this more often..
But I need to know way in advance so I can ask my mum where she keeps all her stuff..
Hahahaha..
Dad came back from Paris today..
He got me 800g of Toblerone
:))
Awesome shit..
And mum approves of my getting an mp3..
She's even looking out for sales for me..
Hahaha..
Landy's lying down and looking at me now..
:)!
So cute my baby.
Royal Rumble later!!!
Woot!
Can't wait..
Hope I can stay up..
Haha
p.s. : SHAWN IS GAY! (I get a great sense of satisfaction every time I say that)
Wednesday, February 16
Lit people and R&J fans!
CLICK HERE
Event Title:
Singapore Indoor Stadium present(s)
Romeo & Juliet
by TNT Theatre Britain
Venue:
@ Stadium Waterfront
(Located behind Singapore Indoor Stadium)
2 Stadium Walk
Singapore 397691
Prices (exclude SISTIC Fee) :
Standard - S$25
(Includes *S$8 worth of food coupon)
Please add to above price $2 SISTIC Fee for tickets above $20 and $1 SISTIC Fee for tickets below $20. Charges include GST where applicable.
General Admission
Free standing/seating
No seats/shelter will be provided
No chairs or raised seatings are allowed
This is a rain or shine event
No pets are allowed
Date & Time Range:
From 03 Mar 2005 (Thu), 7.30 PM
to 06 Mar 2005 (Sun), 6.00 PM
Duration of Performance:
Approx 2 hrs
Interval: Approx 15 mins
I can get us all tickets at 20 bucks a piece..
Wanna go?
Tuesday, February 15
WOO-HOO!!
THIS FEELING ROCKS!!!
WOO-HEY!!!!!
YEAH!
I was so happy I sped all the way home grinning idotically to myself!!!
OH YEAH!
I don't ever want this feeling to go away!
This's the best I've felt in a long, long time!
Well she doesn't know it, but she's my fucking lifesaver!!!
THANK YOU SO SO MUCH!
Can't wait till I next see her again!!
-Grins-
You... lost and lonely
You... strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water, you're just like a dream
You're just like a dream
You.. just like heaven
Monday, February 14
Hello
Haven't been writing a long entry updating you about my sad pathetic life in a while.
Woke late today for CONSTANTINE!
I bloody love the show..
One of the best I've ever seen..
I mean, of course Rachel Weisz has something to do with the movie being so hot..
-Grins-
Met Sze and Kiat later in town..
We walked around while waiting for Jenny(who was really really late) to meet for lunch.
Went to the Taka library..
Got another Archer book..
Oh, do not read First Among Equals unless you're a huge politics fan...
To me, it's dead boring.
Mmm-hmm.
Lunched at kfc when Jenny finally came cos Kiat complained that Subway was too far off..
:(
Yeah..
Escorted Kiat to Starfucks and..
ANTHEA MADE ME A CHOC CREAM FRAP FOR VALENTINE'S DAY!
That had to be the BEST Valentine's Day present EVER!
I LOVE YOU ANTHEA!!!
Enjoyed the CHOC CREAM FRAP at starfucks while playing with the other's camera phones..
Funny pictures I tell you.
:)
While leaving Paragon we saw Diana Ser on the escalator..
Wow..
She looks even prettier in real life..
-Grins-
Sze was wondering why James Lye wasn't out with her..
Hee hee..
Then to monster where me and Sze struggled..
Not really Sze lah.. Just, I struggled..
Hahaa
PS-ing for awhile before I hadta head home..
Me and Jenny laughed till our sides hurt on the train..
There was this group of guys who boarded..
Wouldn't have noticed them if one of them ahdn't spoken..
I thought it was someone from our school but it was GUY!
Hahaha..
Then his friends kept caling him Valerie!
Bwhahahahah
So the two of us were still laughing about that when another friend called another guy bunny(or barney.. Can't be too sure)!!!
ROFL!!
Haahhaa..
We laughed all the fucking way from Dhoby Ghaut to Sengkang..
Hahahhaa
Yup,
I think that's all for my sad pathetic life..
Shall levce you with what's playing now on my computer.
I's kinda sad that I have learned to deal with things like this
Being strong means being heartless
Tell me, how do the scars feel after the wounds heal?
Did it burn when they cauterized?
Did it show that you were hiding the hurt inside?
Do your eyes still shine as bright as they did the days when you were at your best?
If you run away from me, I'm not running after you
(Cause I'm so tired)
If you turn away from this, don't look back
(Cause I'll be gone)
If you go, then I'll forget you
When you're gone, I won't miss you
I'm sorry, that's just the way I've learned to deal with a broken heart
If you go, then I'll forget you
When you're gone, I won't miss you
I'm sorry, that's just the way I've learned to deal with a broken heart
And broken promises
It's been a long time since I've seen you and longer since we've talked,
And the last thing that I said was I had nothing to say
Now I'm choking on my words,
All the things I didn't say that could have made it all ok
Now that you're all alone and feeling sorry for yourself,
Did it make sense to lie to me and deceive me like you did?
And if you run away from me, I'm not running after you
(Cause I'm so tired)
If you turn away from this, don't look back
(Cause I'll be gone)
If you run away from me, I'm not running after you
(Cause I'm so tired)
If you turn away from this, don't look back
(Cause I'll be gone)
If you go, then I'll forget you
When you're gone, I won’t miss you
I'm sorry, that’s just the way I've learned to deal with a broken heart
If you go, then I'll forget you
When you’re gone, I won't miss you
I'm sorry, that's just the way I've learned to deal with a broken heart
And broken promises
Tell me, how do the scars feel after the wounds heal?
Did it burn when they cauterized?
Did it show that you were hiding the hurt inside?
Do your eyes still shine as bright as they did the days when you were at your best?
How do the scars feel after the wounds heal?
Did it burn when they cauterized?
How do the scars feel after the wounds heal?
Did it burn when they cauterized?
How do the scars feel after the wounds heal?
Did it burn when they cauterized?
Saturday, February 12
I've seen like 5 funerals during Chinese New Year.
Conspiricy? Or Irony?
I'm making absolutely no headway with Silo..
The same can be said for that thing too.
Gotta go check out Yamaha one day..
Need electric guitar lessons.
Mummy's paying..
:)
Wednesday, February 9
How to fuck up the rest of your life in 1 easy step:
You taught me many things.
Like how it feels to miss someone so bad
It feels like a part of you is missing.
I can tell you one thing.
Now that you have gone I never will forget you.
You left your mark.
I don't know if I can make it.
I don't know if I'm that strong.
I don't know where we went wrong but somehow it's over.
In my mind I see you clearly.
In my dreams I feel you near me.
I want to know, does this feeling go away?
Like shooting stars we shine and then we fade,
Breaking the promises we made.
What about the promises?
What about the promises we made?
What about our plans for forever?
Did they scare you?
Did you need to get away?
Tuesday, February 8
How to usher in the Chinese New Year in 10 simple steps:
1) Drag youself out of bed at 8am
2) Meet some friends
3) Go back to your old school for cny celebrations
4) Laugh at all the teachers and students
5) Bully your dm ganma
6) Plan to watch a movie but cancel it
7) Do something extremely stupid
8) Gamble your aunt and cousin into submission
9) Drink Coke when the countdown starts
10) Finish drinking Coke at 12:00:10am the next day
ps: I GOT MY YEARBOOK!!! LOSERS! Ha!
Monday, February 7
Carbonated Water, Sugar, Caramel Colour, Phosphoric Acid, Flavourings and Caffeine.
Contains permitted food additives of non-animal origin.
Energy: 630 kcal
Fat: 0g
Protein: 0g
Carbohydrate: 165g
Mmm-mmm..
Guess what I had today..
All 1.5 litres of it..
Hahahhaa
Yummers.
CNY's good for 3 reasons.
1) Cash
2) Junk food
3) COKE!!
^_^!
I hope.
Friday, February 4
:)
Today was great.
Met the folks at 11..
Was an hour late..
The only day tt lyn's early everyone else's fucking late..
HAHAHA!
L-O-S-E-R L-Y-N!
Anywaies, we were trying to decide on what movie to watch cos SOME PEOPLE went ahead and watched Electra without us.
Ended up at Macs with 2 large Cokes and our blabbering.
Ohoh..
This lil kid was staring at Safy, and his hair was exactally like John's!!!!
HAHA
So that was the mini-John..
And later, we spotted the mini-Safy playing with the mini-John..
Whahahhaa...
Funny shit.
There were many people there with nice hair..
:)
Lyn went for a nose piercing (She looks fucking indian)
And Min pierced her ear again..
Safy and me looked and laughed..
-Evil grin-
Min was complaining tt her hair kept getting caught in her new piercing to we went to wax her hair..
I mean really wax..
So much so that I think we could have used her as a human candle.
:x
Then we tramped around till 2 when we started calling Ganma frantically cos we were fucking hungry..
Crazy woman didn't call us back till 2.30..
She told us to head down to eat without her first.
Me and min met her later then brought her to Swensen's where her arrival was announced..
Ha
Had nice Swensen's food followed by AWESOME ice cream..
Mmm-mm
-Licks lips-
Min had to scram early so the rest of us went to take neos..
This bunch of SJCians couldn't believe that we were taking neos with the dm.
I mean, we were quite a sorry bunch.
Lyn with her freaky fingers and weird hair, Safy with her tinted hair glory, and well.. me with... me..
:)
Hahaha..
Ganma's thinking about getting a neo machine for sch..
AWESOME IDEA!
Plus, she's making short haired ppl wear wigs..
Hahaha..
Thank god I'm outta there already..
lol!
Mmm-hmm..
Waited for Terence to pick us up..
Chauffer man drove us all home..
Heehee..
He's super quiet..
We've decided to convert him so that he's as loud or louder than us..
So, watch out Terence!!!
Note: Ms Margret Koh is SUPER FUCKING HOT!!! Waaah.. If I were straight, i'd turn les for her!! Min re-kindled my old crush.. So this's kinda like my longest outstanding crush.. Since Sec 1.. -Grins- I don't know why I'm so happy but just the thought to Ms Koh makes me grin like an asshole. -Grin- -Grin- -Grin- Sucha hot babe.. :)
Buut! I'm still sad amid all this happiness..
You should know why.
Thursday, February 3
1.what are you doing now?
Typing this
2. what were you doing before this?
Playing Gunbound
3. what are you thinking now?
How much I need the toilet
4. what time is it now?
8.54pm
5. what time did you sleep last night?
2am
6. what did you do last night?
Watching tv, taking care of the furballs
7. what did you last say to a friend last night?
Fuck you
8. what attracts you to the opposite sex?
Scruffiness or maybe boyish looks.. :)
9. what makes you happy?
Some people, all animals
10. what are you wearing right now?
Class tee!!! And Billabong 3-quarts
11. what will you do after answering this?
Bang on the toilet door and yell at my dad to scram
12. who was the last person you talked to?
Lyn
13. what do you do when you talk?
Open my mouth and pronounce words
14. when is your birthday?
9th May
15. when did you last cry?
Few days ago
17. when did you last smile?
Yday
18. why did you answer this?
I'm bored, and I don't feel like bloggin properly
19. when will you marry?
When I find a guy who loves animals more than he loves me.
:) (serious)
20. When did u last receive a gift?
X'mas
21. when did you last drink alcoholic drink?
Don't remember
22. who will you vote for president?
SM Goh!
23. who was the last person who called u?
Dad
24. who makes you happy?
Some people and my furballs.. :))
25. who is your enemy?
-Cough cough- Err... Bush? And IT
26. who has the qualities you like in a girl/guy?
Funny, sweet, honest.. I dunno really.
27. who do you hate most among your friends?
Heh-heh.. IT!
28. who's your closest among the females?
A few people. Lyn, Min, Sze, Kiat, Joel(??), Safy, John(heehee) etc.
29. who has the cutest smile you've ever seen?
Errm.. She'll hate me for life if I write her name down.. So, *****
30. who do you talk on the phone with often?
Lyn
31. do you belong to a team in your school?
Npcc? And the un-official sjc bball team
32. how's school?
Missing it
33. any regrets?
Many.
34. what genre of music you listen to?
Now, stuff where it's all JANG JANG JANG and you can't hear what they're saying. It calms me down.. :)
35. are you a workaholic?
I slack plenty, except when it comes to animal stuff
36. do you have someone in mind that you want to marry?
YES! BENJAMIN MCKENZIE!!!!!!! Marry me Ben!!!
37. do you like swimming?
I can't swim
38. do you wear eye contacts?
Nope
40. do you kiss your parents good night?
Nope
41. does your crush often send you messages in friendster?
My crush doesn't talk to me anymore.
42. how about in e-mail?
Like I said, my crush doesn't talk to me anymore
43. how often do you use the internet?
Depends
44. how is your hair styled right now?
Scruffy.. Haha
45. how are you feeling right now?
Pissy-fied, sad, frustrated.. Mixture
46. how is the weather?
It's dark.. Can't tell..
47. how will you treat your loved one?
Be my loved one and find out.
48. how old are you this year?
16 going on 17
49. who do you miss?
Oats and Barley and uhh.. her
50. what do you say often?
Fuck you.. :)
Wednesday, February 2
I realise Happy Tree Friends sickens me more than it amuses me.
They should make cartoons where humans fucking massacre each other.
That'll be the fucking cartoon of the century.
Fucking self-centered, egotistical humans.
Bastards.
The root of all evil.
They're the fucking problem.
They think they're so fucking high and mighty.
They think they're so bloody smart.
But I say "Fuck them. Fuck them all to hell."
I'm so messed up now.
I want to kill something human.
Hear it's cries and watch it bleed to it's fuckin death.
Fucking frustrated.
Don't mess with me now.
My nerves will snap.
I swear, you will pay if you try to fuck with me now.
Slayer's good for calming nerves
And CS always promises me blood.
I don't think my rabbits can calm me down now.
I had to stop myself by force from throwing something across the room.
Shall go watch happy tree friends.
I need more bloodshed.
Sport the war, war support
The sport is war, total war
When victory's a massacre
The final swing is not a drill
It's how many people I can kill
Tuesday, February 1
There's CSI tonight.
A lost connection from your poison dart
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold
I tried so fuckin hard but I can't fit your mold