Cauterize - Something Beautiful
Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why
I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead
Ok, this's the 3rd entry today.
Hahaha...
I'm wiped.
Really.
After lessons (which ended fucking late), me, Kiat and Rach took off to meet Ant.
Ran into Lena on the bus (She went to the wrong Gelare)!
Then went Suntec and laughed at Lena for awhile.
Wanted to get my frozen lagsana and get the starbucks people to heat up but got lazy and settled for a $1.70 hotdog where the bread was nicer than the hotdog.
=/
Then went to try and do Ronald but there were two chicks there.
Seems like Ronald gets all the chicks.
The Colonel was too far away so I snuggled up to Barney while waiting for Kiat and Rach to withdraw cash.
Then we went to Suntec Starbucks and sat there for a few hours just talking and laughing.
Talked about SJC and all the crazy stuff we did.
Talked about how much we'd love to paper Ronald and the Colonel one day.
Talked about sick ways to decorate them (Most of the ideas came from me cus I was tired)
Talked about some of my problems also.
Seems like I can never be rid of them.
-Sighs-
Anywaies, mum called around 9 and nagged at me to go home cus my dinner was cold.
Ya so went back Dhoby Ghaut and took nel home while the rest wenta play pool.
It's strange that my mum didn't ask why I stay out so late.
I have this creepy feeling that she knows everything that's been going on.
And if she knows, it's very irritating cus she won't tell me that she knows but she'll just act like she knows and I don't wanna ask her if she knows and ya.
I'm rambling.
It's a sign that I gotta sleep.
You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile I'd like to earn.
The closest thing to perfect,
In a hollywood to burn.
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me.
Just back from Mobil with Niz.
Went to look for food but got Coke instead.
We didn't have a fact this morning.
Aparently there was a fuck-up with Rp's substitute system.
So yeah.
We slacked till we got bored and the whole class wanted to get outta school.
Actually, some of us still wanted lessons all so we stood at smoker's lane and discussed.
But in the end they went One Stop Center so we all followed lah
Then they told us to hang around Rp till they called us to let us know if we were gonna have lessons all.
So fuck lah, we stayed in school.
Stupid we should've all gone out.
So anyway in the end we had lessons at 11.15.
And now noone's got any mood to do anything.
We're all basically slacking and doing our own shit crap.
Nobody's remotely interested.
Fuck man, I should've gone ahead and skipped school today.
Hello!
Second week of school..
It's been quite a trip.
:)
Mmmm I think I've got my feelings under control.
So far, I'm taking it a day at a time.
Yep..
Yday skipped bball training and met Kiat, Rach and Lena.
We stayed out till 10 and just talked..
It was fucking fun!
Espically on the train when we were talking about... err.. stuff.
HAHAHAHHA!
Later gonna meet Jenny and Ant to watch Lena scoop ice cream.
lol!
My headphones has an exposed wire..
Fuck sad lah..
My favourite headphones.
:(
I think if I get another pair it's gonna be the same design all..
:)
Damn, she's sitting in my line of sight.
-Sighs-
Guess it's stare-at-your-laptop day again..
=/
Ouch.
I touched the exposed wire.
Pain.
:: A R E Y O U :::
*a shopaholic = Depends
*a brainiac = I'm dense.
*sensitive = Dunno
*easily hurt = Yeah
*calm = Sometimes
*quiet = With people I don't know well
*choosy = Depends
*active = When I'm not tired?
*very shy = At first.
*confident in urself = Bullshit
*brand-conscious = Quite la.. Haha
*a good listener = I guess
*easily bored = I have stuff to think about
*daring = Hee (Back gate thing)
*outgoing = Dunno.. Am I?
*open-minded = Quite
*an only child = Nope
*happy at the moment = Nope
*tired = Very
*playing any online games = Nope
*good at chess = Nope
*tempted by chocolates = Hell yeah.
*a couch potato = Sometimes
*dark/tan/fair = Tan
*afraid of the dark = A bit.
::: D O Y O U :::
*play the guitar = Learning
*play the piano = Twinkle twinkle star?
*like your life = Not really
*like school = Sometimes
*like dancing = Nope
*like sweets = Yeah
*like travelling = Hate the plane rides though.
*own an Xbox = Nope
*have a handphone = Yeah
*like Spongebob Squarepants = Kinda. Quite cute lah.
*have a tattoo = Nope
*ride a bike = Yeah
*read Harry Potter = Yeah
*read a lot = Depends
*yell at your siblings = No, I just make fun of her quitely
*argue with your parents = Nope
*love McDonalds = Ok
*play basketball = Yeah
*play badminton = Yeah
*watch Disneychannel = Don't have SCV
*like Oreo = Yeah with milk
*like potato chips = Yeah. Ruffles have ridges!
*drive = Underaged
*do the housework = Have to
*like this quiz = No, I want to sleep.
::: W I L L Y O U :::
*get more than 5 piercings = Nope
*curse a friend = Yeah
*hit someone that offended you = Physically? Doubt so.
*cheat to win = Err.. If I really can't lose.
*hug a stranger = Depends
*sneak out at night alone = Naah.. Wanna try it someday.
*join Fear Factor = Maybe
*work for Donald Trump if you had a choice = Nope
*further your studies overseas = Yeah
*try summoning a ghost for fun = No
*try alcohol = Tried and didn't like it.
*cut your hair = Yeah
Ok, sleepy..
G'nite all.
I've been neglecting my baby this past week..
With school and the outings and all..
And she's been letting me know.
Hahha.. So cute.
:))
Anyway, gonna make it up to her later by giving her a massage..
Or at least I'll try la...
Hahhaa..
Still sore from basketball.
Gonna get somemore tmr!
Shiok-ness.
I feel tired.
K bye.
Please, don't pull me through
No, I don't wanna go in
Please,
I just can't fall for you.
(edit)
Check out my horescope for today courtesy of friendster:
You've been quite busy lately, and for all the right reasons. A certain someone has been keeping you occupied in a variety of departments. In other words, whether you've been together or not, you've been quite absorbed with them -- and quite unable to concentrate on anything else. Fortunately, you can make this a three-day weekend if you need to. No one who knows you will expect to see you tomorrow.
What the fuck.
I should shoot myself right now.
HELLO!
Just back from basketball tryouts and I feel AWESOME!
Yaay!
It was so fun!
Best decision I've made this year..
:)
The people were friendly and helpful and all..
Damn fun lah...
There's someone that reminds me of Sze!
Only more of my height.
And there's someone who reminds me of Tiang!
Hahaha..
Anna's quite pretty..
Hahaha..
She kept slapping me at.. err... places I wasn't comfortable with..
Hahaha..
Bel they all stayed back awhile to check out floorball and laugh at me..
Haaha..
Super paiseh...
=/
lol
Played till around 8:30 then hitched a ride to Redhill with Hwee Min (Not ah mah the Hwee Min)..
Then train-ed home..
OC later! Shower now!
Whieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
High on basketball.
Hello...
School just ended early..
It's 3.30 and me and Niz're waiting for the rest to get off from class..
Remember what I was saying about the air-con?
Well, someone turned up the heat and it got kinda hot...
Hahhaa.. Don't think dirty ya?
:)
Anywaies, class today was ooookay..
I don't like the facilitator..
Quite bitchy.
Hahaha..
Ya..
We had to design some simple software that was almost alike or better than the one we were given..
I think my group did quite okay..
We didn't talk much (at all)..
lol..
Lunch was Chicken Chop which tasted weird..
Haha..
Yup...
Dunno what I'm gonna do after this..
Yday was super slack...
It was reply of sec sch bio lesson (w/o ms charles)
Yupyup..
Then aft class, I met Kiat, Lena and Ant and they went to play pool..
Played till about 8.30-ish I think..
Then I left..
When I got home, I recieved an sms from Kiat saying GP was at Monster...
WAAAAH!
What a waste lah..
Hahhahaa..
Yupyup..
Then k.o.ed at 10.30 and I'm still tired now..
zZzZzZzZz..
Niz's listening to her whatever songs that I don't have (Avril!)..
(cont'd)
Then we went to the library to have a look round..
Wasn't bad.. But all ref books..
Ya, then slacked waiting for Niz's friend and I somehow owe Tanya 5 bucks now..
=/
Met Bel and the guys at the bus stop then went home with Jerome cus he wasn't feeling well and I wanted to go home...
I was at compass just now and when I walked past mos burger someone called my name.
Then I looked in and this compassvale sec girl was waving at me
And I didn't know her!!!!
But I waved back.
Hhahahha..
So weird.. I don't remember the girl at all..
=/
Ant thinks I'm famous..
rofl Ant!!!
KIAT'S A REPUBLICIAN!!!!!
Awesome shit fuck!
Hahhaa..
She just smsed me..
Sweet yeah?
She's gonna meet us then we going to school together..
Yaay-ness!
It's 9:30am on the second day of school at RP and I'm sitting directly in front of the air-con that's blowing 20 degrees of air at me.
IT'S SO FUCKING COLD!!
-Shivers-
This bites.
Today's teacher sucks shit.
Noone gets what she's talking about and we have to design some sort of software..
K gotta run..
Go do work now.
Later.
I've been going through a bad patch lately, and I wanna say a big "Thank you" to all who've been there for me.
Esp, Kiat, Ant, Lena and Sze..
Yeah...
Last night's Starbucks thing was the wildest thing I've done in a looong while..
But I'm lucky I can count on my dad..
:)
Love you guys.
I'll be right here if you guys ever need anything.
Doesn't matter that we're in different schools.
TSC/TJC will always stick.
Lena won't share her cornflakes!!! How mean is that?
-Nudges love-
Hahaha..
I need to go clothes shopping one weekend.
School starts Monday.
G'nite folks.
But I don't think you still care.
Story Of The Year - Burning Years
It's not what you will say
It's what you have done
To let this come between us
You're right, without a fight
It might be worth it to you
And in the process, gotten to me
I think that nothing can fly,
With this broken wing
There's so much to hold on to now
Nothing can fly,
With this broken wing
So, here's a gift,
In this feather
You've gone too far
I'm not standing alone
Lets sort this out together
You're right, without a fight
This might be worth it to you
But I can't take this anymore
I think that nothing can fly,
With this broken wing
There's so much to hold on to now
Nothing can fly,
With this broken wing
So, here's a gift,
In this feather
From this house of our friendship
Shut the door and light the match
Throw behind you
Walk away
You burn it down
These ashes
These ashes
These ashes burn
I think that nothing can fly,
With this broken wing
There's so much to hold on to now
Nothing can fly,
With this broken wing
So, here's a gift,
In this feather
Nothing can fly,
With this broken wing
So, here's a gift,
In this feather
Another late night/morning entry..
******* is a fucker and deserves to rot and bloody burn in hell.
Die bastard!!
I miss hanging out with the gang..
Haagen Dazs's choc choc chip ice-cream makes sad people happy.
I have my eye on some pretty nice clothes.
Cry laughing is not fun.
But Starbucks closing is fun! (Cept for the Mr.Krabbs-like manager)
I still think of you..
And it hurts.
I miss you still.
Deep down.
I really do.
The nights don't change
The stars still spell out your name
I will wait for you.
Oooookay!
Since I'm waiting for my hair to dry before I catch some "z"s, thought I'd do an entry..
Yday was boring with a capital "B"
We learnt how PBL worked and had many many talks..
Butt hurt from all the talks...
Nothing interesting happened yday lah..
Today was the 2nd day of Rp's freshman orientation programme
We had TBG and telematches.
It was pretty fun..
I was in Jason which was part of Troy which was part of Greece.
Can catch?
Hahaha..
Yeah..
At the beginning it was kinda awkward in the group,
But Bel was there and she knew Bryan and Bryan knew Jerome and we played whacko so it was cool..
Anyway, Jason was pretty united.
And we got along really well with our yr2 helper, HelMi, too.
He's nice lah..
Can make fun of his name and he's cool with it (HelMi = Help Me = SOS)
Hahahah
I love Jason's flag!!
But we didn't win..
Reff kayu!!!
Hahaha...
There was this one game where we had to form a human pyramid..
Jia lak..
But we put all the guys below so.. hahaha...
And they all had backaches after!
Wahahha!
Another game (which we didn't get to play) they had to play Captain's Ball using a tomato..
=/
Hahaha..
Looked really fun.
But cus the sky got cloudy so we were ushered back into the classrooms..
:(
Ohoh!
After (catered) lunch, when we went for games briefing, the president told us that the food was contaminated!
With cockroach eggs!!
Even the guys went "Ewwwwww"
rofl!!!
But noone was poisoned so it wasn't that bad.
Dinner sucked.
Since Rp fired the caterer, we had "finger food" which was pathetic.
After dinner we went to war!
Water war!!!
Greece vs Italy!!
Greece won I think..
:)
We didn't get to play though.
Cus it was chaotic..
Bel, Bryan, Jerome, Alan and I were supposed to represent Jason (Cus the others didn't wanna get wet).
But then dunno wtf happened and we ended up on the sidelines..
But!! We still got wet!
Wahahhahaha...
Alan had a really bad day today..
Stuff kept dropping on his head and he kept stepping in trash..
Hahhaa.. Poor guy!
After the war, which ended at 9+,
Bel, Bryan, Jerome, Alan and I went for late late dinner at the hawker center..
Then we all went home..
So sleepy on the train..
Then this old moron tripped over my feet..
Stupid asshole kept staring at me throughout the train ride.
So I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep.
Ha!
I realise that Rp netballers are about as siao as SJC netballers..
They were still training at 10pm..
lol!
12:30am!
I'm so tired...
My wrist hurts..
I need the toilet..
Food poisoning???
-Shudders-
I skipped camp...
Hee..
Got lazy.
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I don't know really what it means
All I know is that you love me,
In my dreams
x)
My babies are so cute!!
Hello..
Alone at home with mummy only..
Dad's in Paris and sis's in camp...
Gonna head off to camp myself.
So I'll be away for the next couple of days in case anyone wonders (Yeah, right.)
Actually, I'm starting to have doubts about going to camp..
Kinda boring???
Then noone I know.
So weird.
Guess we'll just see my mood tmr...
=/
Today was hectic/fun.
It goes either way really..
Accompanied Jenny to bring Mulan for grooming and her jab..
Everytime I see a vet, it spurs me on even more.
=)
Then went to Rp (4th day in a row) to get my laptop.
FINALLY!
Yaay-ness!
Came home to dump my laptop and spilled coke in the cab on the way..
What a waste, so much coke..
:'(
So sad la..
Anywaies, met the rest at Wee Lee and we jammed two hours straight..
(It was basically the rest playing and me trying to get what they were playing)
It's pretty ex, but we should do it every week.
How abou every Thursday?
TJC.. Thursday Jamming Crew??
Hahaha..
It's been a really expensive week.
We took like 3 cabs today..
Chalked up to quite a bit..
Think I spent about $2,200 this week maybe?
Phew..
Hell lotta moolah (I know I copied someone's term and I'm sorry)
M'kay..
OC's on soon..
Haveta clean my guitar too..
See ya.
P.S. : I'm gonna clear off the video soon.. Anyone who wants it should ask Jenny to send a copy k?
Today,
Went to get my pay!!
Went to RP today with Lena..
It's pretty small..
How sad.
=/
But on the bright side,
The bus really takes 5 minutes to get to town!!!
COOL!
Hahaha..
Then went to Cini to catch The SpongeBob Squarepants Movie..
So cute!
But damn lame..
Patrick's gay damnit!!!
Hahahahah...
Mmm..
Then went backta Funan afterwards to look at laptops..
Walked to Clark Quay station and we ended up staying there for a long long time.
Cus there were these 7 cats, so CUTE!
>.<
Seriously.
Then a lady came and fed them their dinner.
We talked awhile with her and found out she was from CWS.
And.. And...
I gave her my paycheck!
ARRGH!
65 dollars!!!!
But felt really happy afterwards..
:)
Lena said I was bewitched..
Yeah, by the cats..
So cute!!!
And sweet..
Scary yellow eyes, but sweet all the same..
:)
I got my MP3 player!!
Mum and Dad and my uncle gave it as an early birthday present!
Shiok-ness!
M P san po fang ji!!!
Wahhahaha..
Sat was great..
Most bits.
Some were.. err.. awkward.
But it was an overall blast.
Sze, Lena, Kiat, Jenny, Feli, Ant, Lili..
So fun!
Pity Jenny and Ant left early.
After AC, we went and sat on the bball court and just reminisced.
So sad...
Then we helped to arrange the canteen cus they needed help.
My back still hurts up till now..
=/
But fun.
Reminded me so much of NP..
Heck, I miss NP..
Maybe I'll go back for training soon..
:)
Then the rest of us hung around in my room and Lena and sze ended up staying over.
We played tai-ti till 5am!
Still can't believe we played the same game for over 7 hours.
Then we slept.
Woke up and played tai-ti AGAIN!
Hahaha..
So lame.
Then they left and I went out for lunch and, later on, dinner with my family.
I'm writing again
These letters to you
Aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping and
You're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to
So far away?
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I'm sleepy now so this'll be kinda weird.
Tony hope the pope dies. (I kinda hope so too?)
Alyssa invited me back to her place in Louisiana. (She's 17)
I'm still thinking about Hwee Shin. (Ha!)
Kicked Darren's ass all around Gb.
Looking very forward to tmr.
It's gonna be fun.
Long time since everyone got together.
:)
Can't wait.
Msn is fucked up.
³ ½ <--- I'm not sure how I did those but I did those.
Yeah.
Err..
Learned a new song.
But can't play the acoustic part properly.
Kiat smsed me with a you-really-don't-have-to-tell-me-all-this msg..
It was an... Eye-opener?
Happy April Fools day!
Heh..
Fuck, I'm hungry...
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