Sunday, September 25
Come?
Thursday, September 22
I believe in angels.
Watched 'A Rumour OF Angels' on tv this afternoon.
It was such a bittersweet movie.
I cried four times.
It's the first not-about-bgr/relationships-sad-movie that I've cried so much watching.
It's really good though.
Has a lot of hidden meanings and stuff.
They should put it as a topic for 'O'Level Lit or something.
It's really really good.
Got me inspiried.
A rumour of angels
A choir I've never heard
But dreamt of
There is no horror in dying
There's The O.C. tonight.
Soddin season finale.
:'(
This song'll play..
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Saturday, September 17
Uggh.
I hate coming home.
If you want to know about the Bangkok Trip go read either Nana's or Yiming's blogs.
I've lost all mood to do any-damn-thing.
Makes me hate myself, makes my anger blow
Suffocates the hope - eats away my will
Traps in all the hate - depression
And I don't wanna feel this way - but I can't stop it at all
And I don't wanna hurt no more - but I can't stop it at all
And I don't wanna lie here numb - but I can't stop it at all
And I don't wanna have to give in - but I can't stop it at all
Depression - it's got me
Depression and anguish the poison's inside me
Why can't I just let me be - I'm tired of feeling this way
Why can't I just have a break - I'm tired of feeling this way
Why can't I just go away - I'm tired of feeling this...
Depression and anguish the battle can't take this
Depression is poison the damage is all done
And I don't deserve this oh, no
And I don't wanna feel this, no
Digs into my heart roots sprout thru my brain
Plants it's ugly thoughts growing wild again
Shuts all systems off, locks me in a haze
Traps in all the hate - depression
And I don't have the strength to scream - But here it comes again
And I don't have the sense to cry - But here it comes again
And I don't have the will to fight - But here it comes again
And I don't have the choice to quit - And here it comes again
Depression and anguish the battle can't take this
Depression is poison the damage is done
Depression it's got me I fight it but why me
Depression and anguish the poison's inside me
Thursday, September 15
Just back from the airport and Bangkok.
It fucking rocked.
I'm missing everyone already.
Can't think right now so I'll update later.
Too damn tired.
I wish it could have lasted forever.
Sunday, September 11
I think my muse's back.
(x
stick a knife into my gut
twist it, turn it
watch as my insides bleed to outsides
cause i still think of you
Or it may be due to The Faders's music that's playing.
Faders rock!
Especially Molly..
Wow.
Dead On Arrival
Jetting off t-t-t-tomorrow morning.
Thailand with the basketball team.
Just done packing.
I brought one duffel bag.
Hoping to get another bag over there.
And jeans. And t-shirts/shirts. And jackets. And berms. And sunglasses. And caps. And shoes. And sports stuff.
Oh hey, I made a shopping list!
Won't be back till Thursday afternoon.
Around 3+ 4.
I'm still contactable though.
At my 929 number.
-nods-
And here's saying goodbye to all who give a fuck.
"BYE!"
Royal Cipher: See you all on friday! Let me know the time on Thurs?
Boings: See you all on Saturday! Study bloody hard please!
If not by two then by one.
Saturday, September 10
Takeoff in two days.
My dreams can kill me sometimes.
Fantasies, that's all they are.
But the feelings, emotions.. Wow.
If only,
If only dreams were real.
The week's been busy.
It's either work, basketball, outings or guitar.
I like my life this way.
Packed.
Cause when I have no time for anything else,
I won't think of you.
But hey hmm..
Guess I still do.
Sometimes.
All the time.
Can't seem to stop kicking me when I'm down can you?
Fucking bugger.
Sitting on the beach again,
Watching as the tide comes rolling in.
I miss the times when I looked into your eyes,
A sacrifice I made for paradise.
The objects in the mirror are closer than they actually appear.
Tuesday, September 6
Fragile is this broken heart, can't take this pain no more
Inflammable is my whole life, yes, I've been burned before
Keep my distance, though I'm drawn to everything I miss
Tongue tied, it's you.
Monday, September 5
Twelve hours ago at two-frigging-twenty am in the morning:
Past two days've been all about work.
Suntec's Comex show thingy.
Did camera sales for Konica Minolta with Huimin and Brenda.
I want an x60!
Damn nice.
My favourite product to promote.
Hahaha
Anyway, the first day, got attached to Jodi, who subsequently became my mentor.
She's super good at sales.
Really.
Jodi's damn nice la..
Always got customers then she'll push them to me but keeps in hearing/jabbing range in case I need help.
(x
Fantastic mentor.
I've learnt so much in just two days.
Sold only 1 on sat, but 4 or 5 on sun.
Yeap.
Sat was a really whacked day.
Giving out flyers and trying to speak up and sell something.
Ball, Pearlyn and their friend Melissa came to visit for awhile at the show.
Saw many many people I knew there too!
So coincidental!
(:
Body ached like fuck when I got home.
Got home not long ago from supper with the Minolta team.
Jodi, Kelvix, Eunice, Alan, SengGan, Johnathon, MaoJin, Marilyn(?), and one more guy's name I can't remember.
Me, ah-min and them headed to laopasa for supper.
I tried stingray for the first time!
Not really much diff..
Tastes like fish!
Hahahaha..
Then we sat there and chatted till 12.45am today.
Really whacko people all above 20.
But whacko.
Their stories're all so interesting.
Haha.
They're damn nice too!
Insisted on sending me and ah-min home.
Like Kelvix insisted on sending min all the way home in a cab then meeting up with the rest outside (they're still "cheong-ing" now)
And MaoJin, Jodi, Eunice and Marilyn(?) insisted on taking a cab to MaoJin's place so that he can get his car and send me all the frigging way home.
Hahaha..
They're nutcases!
All the bloody way from Suntec to Eunos to Sengkang and then to Holland V!
Sheesh.
MaoJin's car is nice.
The five of us were laughing our heads off throughout the whole journey.
Some stupid shit la.
Super sleepy now.
But my hair's not dry.
But hope you know you still are.
Friday, September 2
It's the last day of school.
Of PN0205A.
I'll miss my dream team.
Riyas, Derek, Siying, Kelvin, Niz, me.
I'll miss this class.
Fantabulous people every single one of 'em.
Honoured to be in the same class as them.
(x
Pity some're still missing.
The jokes, presentations, comments, videos, company.
Will always be remembered.
Wake me up when September ends.
I hate holidays.
Is beige with the pieces all face down.
So the placing goes slowly.
The pictures of anything other than it's meant to be.
But the hours they creep
The patterns repeat
Don't be concerned
You know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said "Don't Go" (don't go)
But I've hidden a note
It's pressed between pages that
You've marked to find your way back.
It says, "Does he ever get the girl?"
But what if the pages stay pressed
The chapters unfinished
The stories too dull to unfold?
Does he ever get the girl?