a farewell to a friend

Cauterize - Something Beautiful

Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this

Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die

You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die

Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die

You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why

I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time

You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead

Thursday, March 30

My dirty little secret's EIGHTEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sweet... x)

Oh look!
Another stupid-boring-when-i-have-nothing-to-do quiz!!

1. What time did you wake up today?
- 1.30pm?
2. Have you taken your shower?
- yes
3. Have you eaten?
- i just had chocolate
4. What are you craving for now?
- CHICKEN... -drool-
5. Do you have any plans for today? If yes, what would it be?
- look for a job!
6. What are you listening to?
- the all american reject's dirty little secret
7. What's bothering you at the moment?
- life
8. What are your current feelings?
- bored
9. Are you willing to make sacrifices in a relationship?
- yeah duh
10. Is your life at ease?
- not really. it's just, stagnent
11. Who are you thinking of?
- noone in particular, just a bunch of people
12. What's the thing you're most looking forward to?
- FRIDAYS WITH THE FCC!
13. What has been taking up most of your time?
- sleep
14. What did you dream of last night?-
that little Landy turned evil and was trying to eat me.. -shudder-
15. Do you think getting attached is all that important?
- depends
16. Describe love.
- a feeling
17. How do you know when it's love?
- when it feels so good but it hurts like hell
18. What are you up to so far?
- looking for employment
19. Do you think you're a bad person?
- i can be
19. Do you think you're a good one?
- i don't know
20. What most people think of you?
- i'm an useless piece of shit
21. Is there anything you have learned about life?
- that everyone, has to die
22. Who do you often chat with in MSN?
- depends
23. The last person who sms you?
- sack (haha)
24. The last person who called you?
- mum
25. The last person you called?
- pantie
26. The last person you sms?
- felidala
27. What's the most hurting truth?
- nobody loves me
28. Do you get bored easily?
- depends on what i'm doing
29. Are you into a serious relationship or just a hanky panky one?
- seriously, i don't know
30. When was the last time you had fun?
- yesterday
31. How often you log in to Friendster?
- whenever i'm extremely bored
32. Do you love this?
- -shrug-

And the time you said that this is forever..

Friday, March 24

"One fire burns out another's burning;
One pain is lessened by naother's anguish;
One desperate grief cures with another's languish;
Take thou some new infection to thy eye,
And the rank poison of the old will die."

Today was fantastically fun.
Met with Lena, Feli and Ant at Compass for lunch.
Laughs started almost as soon as we met up.
We had the cheapest lunch I've had in a long time at the food court then proceeded to Cold Storage for grocery shopping.
Lena misheard something I said which let to laughing out loud in Cold Storage.

Later, they came over and Ant fell asleep in my couch.
Seems like my couch's pretty comfortable cause people keep falling asleep on it.
Lena, Feli and I had an intense discussion while peeling potatoes (they peeled, I watched).
When Ant got up, we had ***.

Kiat and Ray came and joined us for dinner.
Potatoes and Mac&Cheese.
Yummers.
KUDOS to the chef!

We watched American Pie in my room then everyone started leaving.
Creme came in and wandered around my room while we were watching.
She found Lena's apple and apple core in her bag and tried to dig it out.
Haha clever puppy.
x)

Our dirty little secret. x)

And the time you said that this is forever..

Tuesday, March 21

I haven't been updating lately,
Save the "Three Random Things About Me Thursday" thing.

My holiday life consists of a basic routine.
1) Get up late
2) Eat a junkfood filled lunch
3) Go online/Watch tv
4) Do some chores
5) Have dinner
6) Stay up late online
7) Sleep
Some rare days though, I get to go out.
But I realise that I'm kinda happy at home.
The only problem is food.
There doesn't seem to be enough unhealthy, fat-filled, disgusting junkfood at home!
-Sigh-

After the FCC bbq last Friday,
I have been bequest with an abnormally pimply face.
>_<
Ickers.
I hate pimples.
I wouldn't know how to say, how good it feels seeing you today.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Thursday, March 16

Three Random Things About Me Thursday.
1) I play Gunbound, CS and Maple
2) (Lyn says) I'm emotional
3) I miss holding a real gun

And the time you said that this is forever..

Friday, March 10

This was for Thursday

Three Random Things About Me Thursday.
1) I just bought a new black shirt which didn't cost much but looks good
2) I dislike Japanese food
3) My parents are out of town this weekened. (:

And the time you said that this is forever..

Monday, March 6

Now that I'm grown I've seen marriages fall to pieces
Now that I'm grown I've seen friendships fall to pieces
Weekend warriors, and our best friends
The writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end
Then again some things, then again some things are far too good
Some things are far too good to go ahead and let go

Always up or down, never down and out
You dream of demons while you sleep
That make you stutter when you speak
Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces

-Stretch stretch-
It's the first day of the holidays for me.
6 weeks of either working or stoning or both.
My shoulder is aching like someone hit it real hard with a metal baseball bat.
I need to go job hunting.
But I'm just way too lazy to.
Chocolate ain't chocolate if it ain't dark chocolate.
Bye, I'm gonna go tickle puppy's feet cause she looks so cute lying there.

Oh by the way,
I saw my very very first crush on Friday.
It all seems so long ago. (:

And the time you said that this is forever..

Saturday, March 4

My father can be such a bastard.

Last night when I went to sleep, I left my thumbdrive in the shelf at the head of my bed.
This morning some people came to clean the air-conditioner.
My air-conditioner is at the head of my bed.
Now my thumbdrive is gone.
My sister also said she saw my thumbdrive where I said I left it.
So I call my folks and tell them that my thumbdrive is missing.
And my dad goes on and on about how messy my room is and how I wouldn't know where I left it and how he's not gonna call them to ask.
FUCK.

And to the motherfuck who took it.
GO FUCK YOURSELF YOU BLACK CHEE BYE.
I HOPE YOU FUCKING ROT IN HELL FOR THIS ASSHOLE.

So you think you know me? You'd better think again.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Thursday, March 2

Another Thursday afternoon.
Another day I skipped school.
Bummed around and did nothing.
Just heard that they ended at 1130am today!
Waah... Mr Ben so nice.

Monday
Couldn't get up so I didn't go to school.
Went to meet some folks at Gardens.
S'been so long since I've been to Gardens.
Anyway I took a route I didn't usually take and I stopped where I didn't usually stop anymore.
=/
You could say that I thought about a lot of things then.
Of what was, and what could have been.
-Sigh-
It was so long ago, but it hurts like yesterday.
I miss you still.

Tuesday was Science
Arul was being quite nice and she let us off early.

Wed was Culture and the UT.
Ms Wong was damn funny.
The topic was on supernatural shit.
Needless to say I got pretty freaked out.
But it was fun and we learnt a lot.
Was supposed to go to Swee Lee after school but Feli couldn't make it.
So went to have KFC with Van.
Then we walked around a bit.
PS Lego's hiring!
But only full-timers.. Which I can't do.
How sad's that?

Can't wait for tmr.
Dumdeedumdeedum.
I love this song.
It makes me cry.
I realise, that there's no picture of you and I.
Hell, I really miss you.

The world has let me down.
Is it you're just not around?
I've lost my reason.
All the memories,
And every smile you gave to me,
You can keep them.

The days go by,
the nights don't change.
The stars still spell out your name.
I will wait for you.

And the time you said that this is forever..