a farewell to a friend

Cauterize - Something Beautiful

Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this

Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die

You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die

Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die

You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why

I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time

You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead

Wednesday, August 30

You'll know its the holidays when,
you have no idea which day of the week it is.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Tuesday, August 29

So sleepy now.

Slept at 3 in the am and got up at 9 (ok la so i fell back asleep and got up at 10).
Met Lena at the bus stop (sorry! made you wait half an hour) and we walked to the beach.
How long's it been since I've gone to east coast.. Like 5 months?
Anyway, we rented bikes, 2 hours for 6 bucks and rode around aimlessly till we hit a dead end.
(WTF MY SISTER JUST PEEPED OVER MY SHOULDER AT THIS ENTRY! ^#!$*&$%@#&%*#@&)
Err ok.. We got lazy after cycling and sat down to tan.
Talk and tan.
Then biked back and returned the bikes and had lunch.
After lunch, more tanning!
But no sun.. ><
Listened to emo songs and got all emo over old stuff.
Then then then.
Came home and mopped floors.
lol.
Hungry.

My arms are the ~~tannest-est~~ most tanned parts of my body.

Hahaha mistress.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Sunday, August 27

Friday evening's entry (there were some problems with blogger):
Obsessed with 'High School Musical' songs.
Only some.

Anyahway
Met Sze, Ant and Lena today!
Woohoo!
Met'em at Forum's Macs where Sze was busy slogging away(not that she continued after I got there)
We sat there for err.. Pretty long.
Then we went to Lido to have dinner and sat there for pretty long too.
After which, we went to the outdoor Macs and sat there for pretty long again!
What a lazy evening of letting our asses get comfy.

They say my hair not nice. =/
So sad.

Saturday's entry:
Just home from.. Church.
Not really la.. More from Gardens.

Got up bright and early to meet Feli, Lena and Ant for prata breakfast(we had prata cravings at 12am in the morning).
Then headed to Feli's to hang.
However, I had to meet Hwee Shin at Newton by 11 so I hitched a ride from Feli's mum and bro-in-law to town and took the train back.

Hwee Shin damn funny la.
First, she didn't bring her hp so she couldn't call me to tell me she'd pick me up from the taxi stand.
Secondly, I had already checked out the buses to the fosterer's place.
But, we ended up taking cab.
And the cabfare ended up being $2.50.
L-O-fucking-L!
The fosterer's so damn responsible that I had nothing much to say after looking at the place.
Thank god Hwee Shin was there to show me the ropes.
We'll be passing Gaby and my lil boy Midnight over to them tmr(technically later).
Gonna hella miss that handsome little stud muffin. =/

Took cab again to Ade's shop in Toa Payoh.
Cabfare = $4.00
We were way early so Hwee Shin had her lunch at a nearby kopitiam while I sipped Coke and watched the resident cats wander around.
Ade came soon after and opened her shop.
Its a pretty nice place, small, cosy and aromatic.
Helped Ade to cut plastic and tidy it up before the rest came.
Had comm meeting from 2pm - 6+pm
Tiring.
And I was taking minutes. (Joanna Kwok BitBit you better appreciate my minutes)

After that Teeny, Hwee Shin and Betty went to buy veggie at NTUC so I tagged along.
We were supposed to have dinner but all lazy so they went home.
Andy saw me along the way, but the blurblock didn't say hi.
He came to look for me when I was queuing for the bus to church though.
Hahahha he damn funny.

Met Janice at her church busstop.
Had a blast at their Youth Group's junk food party.
Stupid games and rubbish food.
Singing and screaming and cheering.
It was fun.
And got to meet some new people and re-meet some old people.
A few of us then went to Chomps to have dinner/supper.
Had a *cou-badexperience-gh* there.
Then cabbed home.

Mouspire!
Oops...

This is the "If you're reading this" section:

Daniel: I will squeeze your bigbig pimple man, I promise you.

Travis: Your hair not nice la.

Benn: Xiao didi.. See you next week!

Sharon: Hahaha.. Chucky.

Lena: I want to borrow your old camera if you're not using it!

Feli: I'm sorry I couldn't stay long. Next time ya?

Ant: Why you so late this morning?

Sze: Study hard! We'll see you after 'A's!!!!

Janice: Study/Work hard! And gargle with lotsa salt water. Or take Coke with salt.

******: U KFC U!(copied from ant) Can't stand your damn face. And you come and rub it in. One day asshole, you'll get your just desserts.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Wednesday, August 23

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JANICEONGDINGDONGJENNYWONGLOUSYMOUSYTEACHERCHURCHPERSON!

Janice! EIGHTEEN! FINALLY! Ahhhhhhhhh... Mad mouse, remember when you're stressed or emo or just need a friend, we are here for you. For me, its just a phonecall away, or 3 stops by train plus a 5 min walk, or about 14 stops if you take 87 plus a 5min walk. Hahaha..

Ok la Friday I'll stay till late.
Miss all you people way too much to go home early.
(:
Screw Maple!

And the time you said that this is forever..

Monday, August 21

OMGGGGG
I found out last night that Couchy is...
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
And she gave me valuable advice!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
ARRGH!
OMG OMG OMG
AHHH!
OMG!
AHAHAHA
OMG OMG OMG
Ahhhh!

And the time you said that this is forever..

Friday, August 18

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO!
AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PAK NANG!

Two retarded people in my retarded class in my retarded school.
3 more days left with you retards.
=/

Seeing other people happy makes me happy.
But its so bittersweet in a way.
Will I have that chance?
Maybe I won't.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Thursday, August 17

I'm so not supposed to feel this way.
itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame itsjustagame

Arrgh
Get over it already!
>< =/ -__-"

And the time you said that this is forever..

Wednesday, August 16

Couchy's in my buddy. ^^!
I got my hair cut short short! ><
And the hairdresser gave me a little tail.
Its gonna look so weird till it grows out a bit.
=/
Kuku! I'll send you pics if I have okay?

Tragedy's over. Accepting death's done.
Buttttt
After those few days of intense cousinly bonding, I don't see my cousins around anymore!
All running back to normal lives. I'm no exception.
Bogged down with new duties and commitments.
Thank god I'm not in basketball anymore.
I wouldn't be able to juggle everything.

Only 4 more days of school!
4 more days of W35N left.
:(
Gonna be busy during this holiday.
I've made my plans.
They involve a lot of staying at home.

Look at my crazy class. (:
Love you people in W35N

And the time you said that this is forever..

Sunday, August 6

I will be very very busy this entire week.
My Grandma has just passed away.
So please understand if I say "No" without giving any reason because I'm tired of repeating myself.
Thanks.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Wednesday, August 2

Hey you,
I hope things work out well.
If not, then I hope you know that I'm always here.
I've always been here.

And the time you said that this is forever..