a farewell to a friend

Cauterize - Something Beautiful

Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this

Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die

You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die

Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die

You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why

I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time

You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you

Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead

Friday, October 27

Close to noone can keep me up the entire night.
Close to.

20 days to go.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Monday, October 23

Anatomy today!
10 people out of a class of 25 came.
Here's to hoping that we end early today.
Got some funky dinner thing with my sister's teacher later on.
Like huh? Its got nothing to do with me!
But I still have to go.
-Yawn-

Friday was fun. (:
But I'm such a whimp. ><

Take care pretz. =/ You make me worry.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Friday, October 20

I'll keep this secret with me
I'll take this to the grave
I can never let you find out
Who I really am

How do you live a lie?

And the time you said that this is forever..

Wednesday, October 18

I need to learn that sleeping at 6am and waking up at 8am and 10am isn't gonna help my body. Gaaah.. I can't sleep!

And the time you said that this is forever..

Monday, October 16

Ataris - My Reply

i got your letter and the poetry you sent me
postmarked in december of last year
i really hope you're doing better
all your friends close by your side
one step closer to recovery

i wish there was something i could say
to erase each and every page
you've been through
even though its not my place to save you

i appreciate but can't accept
this thank you note that's sealed with your last breath
and i won't stand aside
and listen to you give up

if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on, just hold on
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on, just hold on
on

these arms remain stretched out to you
maybe someday you'll accept them
maybe its too late to save
a young girl's heart that's once stopped beating

wake up, wake up you've gotta believe
wake up, wake up
you can't give up time keeps going on without us
long after we're dead and gone

i wish there was something i could say
to erase each and every page
you've been through
even though its not my place to save you

i appreciate but cant accept
this thank you note that's sealed with your last breath
and i won't stand aside
and listen to you give up

if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on, just hold on
if you'll just hold on for one more second
just hold on to what you have
just hold on, just hold on
on

And the time you said that this is forever..

Friday, October 13

5 more weeks.

And a huge Happy Birthday going out to a friend.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Tuesday, October 10

(x

10.10.06

And the time you said that this is forever..

Monday, October 9

Am I going overboard?
Maybe.
=/
Someone hold me back.
Someone stop me.
From falling all over again.
And getting nothing in return.
Hold me down.
Please, stop me.
Cause it seems I can't stop myself.

Did you get my letter I wrote you but I did not send?

And the time you said that this is forever..

Sunday, October 8

Warning: Killer Haze.

At least its cleared up a bit now.
PSI hit 150 yesterday!
At Gardens it looked as if there was always someone smoking around you.
Crashed Lyn's in the afternoon the met Belle and Min for dinner at Chomps.
Walked around a bit then we decided to get goodies!
Ben&Jerry's Phish Food and Sara Lee's cheesecake at Lyn's!
Plus Fast and Furious! Drift drift drift
Got home pretty late last night. (:

Zouk was pretty cool.
Saw a lot of people.
It ended pretty early though.. 9.30pm.
And there wasn't any real clubbing.
I had the most alcohol I've ever drunk in my life.
I'm such a fucking loser la.

Seems like you're halfway around the world.

And the time you said that this is forever..

Thursday, October 5

Tomorrow's Friday!
Zouk-ing!
Saturday's laning!
Sunday's lunching!
Busy weekend. =/

Changed my blogskin again.
During class presentations.
Molecular Cell Biology's pretty Biochem based.
I think I'm gonna get lost along the way again.

Its different when you're not around.
Please come back soon.

43 more days to go.

And the time you said that this is forever..