Faded,
Away like the color in a blue sky
At the end of the day
Night falls, and the search begins
For something, something better than this
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You said the only way is to run away
You're sick of me so you just can't
Stick around to hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
I just cant stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Helpless cus my hands are tied
Eyelids pinned back so they're opened wide
In a theater, all alone
In the front row, to watch something beautiful die
Scream or a cry the truth or a lie
I'm not sure they will save us this time
I don't wanna be around
When it all comes down to watch something beautiful die
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick around
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
What happened to
The things that we used to do
You said its all the same
And that you needed a change
You left without good-bye
And now I'm wonderin why
I don't think I wanna know
All the things he does better
How the past just doesn't matter
You left me once, this time will be the last time
You say the only way is to run away
Sick of me so you just cant stick aournd
To hear me pleadin, I'm pleadin
Does it show, I'm pathetic I know
Just can't stand here watch you go
I'm runnin after you, I'm runnin after you
Look for the feeling that we lost
Where'd you have it last
Maybe if we retrace our steps
But we can't find the path
That led us here to where we stand
Face to face to watch this bitter end
Now something beautiful is dead
Meh, its 2am in the morning and I have school at 8.30am and I can't sleep for some reason.
Weird (I keep spelling it as "werid"), I made sure that I was throughly exhausted by walking home.. It was like an hour's walk. And I went kayaking yesterday so much so that my upper body is k-i-l-l-er. My head was so gonna hit the pillow when I got home, but now I'm wide awake enjoying a Vitagen. Guess even extreme exhaustion can't knock me out. ._.
Okay, maybe I'm worrying about her again, cause of what she posted in her guild thread. "again~ relying on training to keep my not-so-empty mind off things." Like I told Lyn, maybe I'm being big-headed by thinking that its about me, cause I asked her if she was feeling better earlier on in the night and told her to take better care of herself. Dunno ah. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
M2M, "Everything you do, (Everything that you do), Makes me wanna go ooh ooh (ooh ohh). Everything you say (Everything that you say), Makes me wanna go ooh ooh (ahh ahh)." Ahh, my friend sent me the techno version. Getting headachey now. -_-
Craving for the 6th Harry Potter book now. Just re-read the first 5.
And the time you said that this is forever..
Monday, July 23
So my romantic life has taken a nose-dive and crashed headfirst into whatever that's on the ground. But hey, I'm getting used to it.
Been occupying myself with anything and everything I can get my hands on. Going out, watching tv, reading books, absorbing myself in music, stopping further from my house just to tire myself out by walking the extra bit, just to think about it less. Its been 23 days now. Anniversary's on the 28th.. We'll, it would have been the 3rd month if we didn't break up.
People tell me I'm obsessed, guess I am. Its hard to forget lah. Especially when even after she's told me she had no other feelings for me other than feelings of awkwardness and guilt, I feel that she still likes me. Maybe I'm just overthinking and being some pompous ass, but she told me that other day that some guy whispered her.
7/19/2007 Rae the funniest thing happened to me ytd at ah ma....someone pm-ed me and asked "if i told u my fren was interested in u, wad will u do?" Rae i said, i'll do nothing Rae 'not even consider?'...nope, sry Rae there's no way i'm gonna go through future accusations le f3
I mean, why's she even telling me this? Weird please. And a mutal friend of ours said that she was saying she was sad and lonely in buddy or something. *Shrugs* She's complicated. Very complicated. I still miss her. =/
The latest thing that's taking up my time's re-reading the entire Harry Potter series. On the 3rd book now, finished the 1st and 2nd last night and this afternoon. I've already re-watched the whole American Pie series. Lotsa tits in The Naked Mile. (:
Looking forward to Wednesday, East Coasting with Sze and Min. Hopefully we'll be able to go kayaking, haven't done that in a long long time. Besides East Coasting being a hell lotta fun, its gonna wipe the shit outta me so by the end of the day, I'll be so stoned that I can't walk straight. Sze's laughing at me on msn now for my typo. Aiya, you should know how absorbed I can get when I'm reading.
