Sunday, September 30
Just had a dinner of cold LJS and I think I'm going to sleep now.
Too tired to update bout the chalet and bbq stuff, I'll do it tomorrow.
Just realised that I've been walking around with my pants unzipped.
Yikes.
My emo song for this moment.
I miss.. I miss..
I wonder, wonder if you miss..
Oh well, I'll keep it all to myself for now.
Some things are best left unsaid. (:
Lene Marlin - Wish I Could
I thought I did everything right
I thought I treated you,
The best way I know how
But where do I find myself now
Where do I find myself now
I look around,
And my friend you're gone,
What did I do wrong
I wish I could say that if you change you're mind I'm here
That if you call for me, I'm there
if you're hurting, I'll run fast, forget about the past
I'll be right by your side,
Be right by your side
I thought you cared for real
I thought that I was good to you,
And made you smile a lot
But this is what I've got
But this is what I've got
I look around,
And my friend you are gone,
I guess you've been for long
I wish I could say that if you change you're mind I'm here
That if you call for me, I'm there
If you're hurting, I'll run fast, forget about the past
I'll be right by your side,
I'll be right by your side
Where do I find myself now,
Where do I find myself now
I wish I could say that if you change you're mind I'm here
That if you call for me, I'm there
If you're hurting, I'll run fast, forget about the past
I'll be right by your side,
I wish I could say that if you change you're mind I'm here
That if you call for me, I'm there
If you're hurting, I'll run fast, forget about the past
I'll be right by your side
Friday, September 28
Part of my RJ(reflection journal) today asked "If you were to be a CEO, what business would you want to start and elaborate."
Up till today, I remember the promise I made back in Primary school.
One day, my best friend(who had a passion for animals too) and I, were talking about what we wanted to be when we grew up.
Both of us decided that we wanted to be vets to help animals and we made a pact.
We'd help each other work towards the goal of becoming a vet and we'd open up a clinic together once we were old enough and got our veterinary licenses.
I still remember what we said that day, and we even shook on it.
But we've lost contact since entering Secondary school and I haven't seen her in years.
Gerald, I wonder how you're doing now, and I hope Shadow's fine too.
No matter what happens, you'll always be my first best buddy.
Well, enough of emo memories.
My eye's been hurting all day long, dunno what the heck's wrong.
Its 4.15pm and I'm off to donate blood, then head to Chua Chu Kang to pick up Cole from his operation, head home, shower, change, pack, and head off for a 3 day 2 night chalet at Pasir Ris.
I'm undeafeatable!
Thursday, September 27
Just finished watching Pokemon Movie 8: Lucario And The Mystery Of Mew
I dunno why heros are so rare these days and hard to find, but they're everywhere in movies, books, cartoons, fictional crap.
Although the last bit was the expected, cliche, self-sacrificing bit, it still made me wanna cry.
Especially when Pikachu thought he lost Ash for good, when that yellow mouse cried, I struggled to hold back tears man. =/
No matter what my mood or how my day was, at the end of the day, the songs still make me smile as I lose myself in the music and lyrics of what people may refer to as a childish cartoon.
It provides me with the strength and determination I need to move on.
Especially since I had to sift though old screenshots today to send to Rae.
Luckly I did it in school, no chance of crying there. (:
"Grow up la," my mother says, as she sees me watching Pokemon.
But hey, I don't care.
Cause, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, I'm unbeatable!
Pokémon: Advanced Battle Theme - I'm Unbeatable
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
I’m unbeatable
Walking down this endless highway
Nothing but my friends beside me
We’ll never give in, we’ll never rest
Advanced Battle is the ultimate test!
From the earth, the land, the sea and sky
They can never win but they sure can try!
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
I’m unbeatable
Pokémon
Advanced Battle!
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
I’m undefeatable
From the stars and the ancient past
They come to play but they’ll never last
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
I’m unbeatable!
Pokémon
Advanced Battle!
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
I’m undefeatable!
You think you’ll win but soon you’ll see
You may be strong but you can’t beat me!
I’m undefeatable!
There’s a feeling deep inside me
And its always there to guide me
Its in my heart and in my soul
Leading me to the ultimate goal!
You can try your best this might be fun
You’ll go down to defeat before you’ve begun!
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
I’m unbeatable!
Pokémon
Advanced Battle!
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
I’m undefeatable!
Every move, each attack you choose
You think you can win but you’ll always lose!
Oh-oh-oh!
Advanced Battle
I’m unbeatable
Pokémon!
Wednesday, September 26
A conversation with some of my favourite people in the world.
You guys have no idea how much I'm looking forward to Friday.
This is to remind myself, when I have the time, to rant about how everything's changed since SJC days and how good friends are drifting further and further apart and how it all sucks that we're growing up and we never have time for one another anymore and how I wish we could turn back time to when we were young and carefree and how much each one of you matters to me and how you've all made me who I am today and how much I miss every single one of you.
Kthanksbye.
Tuesday, September 25
I'll keep at it I guess, cause you, wanted me to get over you.
I'm sorry if I seem distant, or if I'm rude at times,
Its the distance that keeps me going, that continues these rhymes.
You see, I can't let myself slip up, or let me fall again,
Or else I'll just be back, to where I first began.
You don't want me to go back there, and neither do I,
So for your sake, cause you want me to, I'll go on and I'll try.
Try to forget everything that we ever were, or will ever be,
Forget everything that reminds me of you, and of you and me.
I'm going to keep building this barrier around my heart,
This stronghold, this fortress, that'll keep you and I apart.
Then, "Goodbye my love," I'll finally say,
"Maybe I'll forget you. Maybe.. Someday."
- Joshua Willam Conner
Dunno why I was so out of focus during yesterday's class.
Hardly did any work and stoned throughout presentations.
Went for a talk both during lunch and after school.
Bloody tiring shit.
Skipped school today cause I was dead tired and didn't feel all too good.
Slept till afternoon then head breakfast for lunch.
Sore throat was killing me.
Spent the afternoon reading fanfics and snacking and drinking water.
Went to get a haircut in the evening and biked down to buy veggies for the furballs after.
Pizza with Coke for dinner.. Mmm..
Watch the 3rd Pokemon movie, Spell Of The Unown.
The last bit where Entei sacrificed himself made me go "Aww" and almost cry.
Self-sacrificing folks are hard to find these days.
My 4th movie's in Italian.
Didn't realise it till I tried to watch it and realised I couldn't understand crap.
On a brighter note, the first batch of songs from Pokemon soundtracks have been downloaded.
The songs make me remember, and smile.
Some of 'em are really sweet too.
Back to reading fanfict now.
I'll stay up tonight for the week's crime show fix and perhaps play some basketball in the morning.
FYP's tomorrow afternoon, its gonna be a chore as well as a bore.
Something's up with my right wrist, feels slightly sprained. =/
2.B.A. Master Soundtrack - Together Forever
You've been such a good friend
I've known you since I don't know when
We've got a lot of friends,
But they come and go
Even though we've never said it,
There's something that the two of us both know
Together, forever no matter how long
From now, until the end of time
We'll be together and you can be sure
That forever and a day
That's how long we'll stay
Together and forever more
Always gone that extra mile
Depended on you all the while
Even in the good and bad times
You will see
From now until our journey's end
You know that you can always count on me
Together, forever no matter how long
From now, until the end of time
We'll be together and you can be sure
That forever and a day
That's how long we'll stay
Together and forever more
No matter where our destiny leads
I'll be there for you, always come through
And that you can believe
Ash: C'mon you guys, I gotta get another badge!
Misty: You'd better figure out how to repay me for my broken bike Ash Ketchum!
Brock: Oh no, not this again.
Pikachu: Pikachu.
Together, forever no matter how long
From now, until the end of time
We'll be together and you can be sure
That forever and a day
That's how long we'll stay
Together and forever more
Together, forever no matter how long
From now, until the end of time
We'll be together and you can be sure
That forever and a day
That's how long we'll stay
Together and forever more
Sunday, September 23
Friday was spent in Bioprospecting and Innovation class where we learnt about GDP.
What the hell does GDP have to do with Science anyway?
Lesson was dead boring but the faci was interesting.
She's like my ganma in a way, very motherly.
I beat Dean at pool during lunch in the library, but the table, balls and cues kinda sucked so maybe I just got lucky.
Went to the library instead of heading home after school.
Managed to borrow Shakespeare's "Much Ado About Nothing", hope its good.
Slept in till late morning on Saturday.
Watched two Pokemon movies, movie 1(part2) - Mewtwo Returns, and movie 6 - The Jirachi Wish Maker.
Ash was so cute in the 6th movie lah.
He was talking to Max about how friends sometimes have to leave you then he said, "A good friend left me, and I.. I miss her every day.."
So obviously talking about Misty.
Wahaha.. So sweet lah Ash.
Met Guin and gang at Marina South with Fen and Xin then we went for dinner.
We then headed to the arcade to play Daytona, Time Crisis II and watch Danny bang away at the drums and Xiang, Nic and Nic's girlfriend play Para Para.
They were actually pretty good eh.
Caught the train to Khatib and headed home from there while the rest went to catch a movie.
Its 11.30am and noone's home.. Wonder why.
Oh well, I shall go grab some cereal and settle down with Ian Fleming's book.
This song is really nice, from Pokemon Movie 6 - The Jirachi Wish Maker
Japanese[Hayashi Asuca], English[Cindy Mizelle] - Make A Wish[Chiisaki Mono]
Thursday, September 20
Managed to get shifts 5, 6, 9 and 10 for the Subaru Challange which starts on Nov 3rd.
Really looking forward to the job and the pay.
Lena and Colin got shifts 4 and 5 so we'll still get to see each other for a shift.
Dean and CS signed up for the same shifts as mine, hope we get to work together too.
Buk dragged Dean, CS and I for an hour long talk today.
Crap shit, I almost fell asleep a couple of times during it.
The worst part was the queue to get out of the lecture theatre.
We took 40 bloody minutes to exit, by that time, we had to rush back to class so we didn't have anything for lunch.
Oh well, made it up by munching on waffles after school.
The door handly that Buk broke on Tuesday made that class inaccessible.
We kept riding him bout it today and he was so embarrassed.
Been doing alot of downloads lately.
Do you know that there are now 10 Pokemon movies?
I'm downloading them all, plus the soundtracks. =D
Just call me young at heart.
I miss those carefree times.
I also downloaded 3 of Lene Marlin's albums.
Some of her songs are really slow but they have real depth and the lyrics hit home.
As perfect as you wanted me
Just wondering what's going on in your mind
I sure hope you're fine
I hope your conscience is clear
Hope you're happy"
Bittersweet sorrow.
The music's not bad either..
I guess the music I listen to really affects my mood.
Listening to happy songs make me chipper, angry songs get me frustrated sometimes, emo songs get me sad and make me reminisce.
Hmm.. I oughta listen to Pokemon songs now before I emo, perfect pick-me-ups.
Oh, did y'know that Ash and Misty have feelings for each other but never voiced them?
Gaaah.. They should be together. :(
This dream will never die.
We won't rest 'til we meet the challenge of the time.
(Advanced Challenge)
Yeah this dream keeps us together,
This shows that you and I,
Will be the best that the world's ever seen.
Because we always will follow this dream.
Pokemon!
Lene Marlin - Never To Know
Did you know, hidden by his clothes there are some scars
Some are recent, some have been there for years
Did you know, it doesn't even hurt
It never really hurts, but there are tears
Do you want the real story, or do you prefer the lie
Do you want to see him smile, or maybe see him cry
Do you want to follow, or let him go alone
For then, never to know, never to know
Never to know
Have you seen the way he acts sometimes
And when you ask, he'll say that he's okay
Have you seen how well he pretends
Laughs out loud, before he looks away
Do you want the real story, or do you prefer the lie
Do you want to see him smile, or maybe see him cry
Do you want to follow, or let him go alone
For then, never to know, never to know
Never to know
Never to know, never to know
Da-dum, da-dum, da-dum, da,
Da-dum, da-dum, da-dum, dum
Do you want the real story, or do you prefer the lie
Do you want to see him smile, or maybe see him cry
Do you want to follow, or let him go alone
For then, never to know, never to know
Do you want the real story, or do you prefer the lie
Do you want to see him smile, or maybe see him cry
Do you want to follow, or let him go alone
For then, never to know, never to know
Never to know
Tuesday, September 18
It was the second day of school today.
So far both my new classes weren't that bad.
Buk broke the door handle on one of the classes today.
He was trying to keep Danny in his class then he tugged so hard on the door handle that it broke off the door.
It was funny earlier on, but I'm not laughing now.
I'm so messed up I don't know what to do.
Should I continue with what I'm doing, keep you close, but let my heart break over and over again everytime we talk and I remember?
Or should I tell you to stop contacting me, because I'll never get over you this way and that we can never be like before, just friends?
Why couldn't you just tell me that you were happy with him?
That you had no regrets, that he was better than me, everything you ever wanted.
That I'd never be able to compare to how great he is even if I tried.
What the hell do you mean by "o.o the oni difference is that i have a flashing pink heart when i train, but that's about it" and "as usual is all business >,<".
What the hell is that supposed to mean?
How am I supposed to interpret that?
Does this mean you have no feelings for him?
Don't give me false hope when there's nothing to hope for.
I'm already broken enough as it is.
When I watched you beat yourself up today over your aunt's passing, my heart bled for you.
But I couldn't comfort you, I couldn't let my guard down.
If I did, I'd have told you everything, about what I'm going through now.
Ironically, I'm still trying to protect you and do what's best for you, even if its at my expense.
I wish I was strong enough to let you go without losing you.
This frustration is eating away at me.
Hopefully it'll just kill me one day, it'd be much easier then.
Sugarcult - Counting Stars
Hey, I wanna crawl out of my skin
Apologize for all my sins
All the things I should have said to you
Hey, I can't make it go away
Over and over in my brain again
All the things I should have said to you
Counting stars wishing I was okay
Crashing down was my biggest mistake
I never ever meant to hurt you
I only did what I had to
Counting stars again
Hey, I'll take this day by day by day
Under the covers I'm okay I guess
Life's too short and I feel small
Counting stars wishing I was okay
Crashing down was my biggest mistake
I never ever meant to hurt you
I only did what I had to
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Monday, September 17
Its 12.35am on Monday morning and I can't sleep.
Watched 'Cruel Intentions', its really good but fortunately, not as porny as Ant made it out to be.
The lead actor looks like Justin Timberlake when Justin had curly hair.
And Sarah-Michelle Geller was such a good slut in the show.
Sad sad ending though. =/
KO-ed at 10+pm but woke up for some reason and now I can't fall back asleep.
I always seem to suffer from emoness and insomnia when there's something happening the next day like an outing I'm looking forward to or a report that's due or the first day of school, shit like that.
I hate change.
Change brings insecurity.
Change means having to prove myself once more.
Change means trying to make others accept me for who I am again.
Change means turning a corner and never being able to go back.
Change means a difference in your routine.
Change means deviating from your comfort zone.
Change is uncontrollable.
Change is scary.
Y'know, sometimes I wish I believed in something more powerful than what normal people can do.
Like in God for example.
Believing that someone good is controlling my life(in a way) would give me a sense of security when change comes.
At least someone can see the future, create miracles and heal whatever pain that eats away at me.
But I don't.
I believe that there's a god, but I don't think I really believe in a god.
I feel that religion was created by man to give him something to turn to when all else fails.
If you can't explain something scientifically then its a miracle isn't it?
And if its a miracle it must be God's work.
Man doesn't seem to like being kept in the dark, we like to think we know everything.
In that movie 'Evan Almighty', there's a line that everyone's so into now.
"If u pray for happiness, does God give you happiness? Or does he give you an opportunity to be happy?"
I think its kinda flawed.
How are you supposed to know that you are give an opportunity?
In the show, it was not until God Himself told her indirectly that she was given an opportunity that she 'saw the light'.
Ok so another example.
I pray to get over someone.
Even if God gives me the opportunities, I don't know how I'll recognize them if/when they appear.
Maybe I'm just a skeptic, maybe its the lack of faith.
Whatever it is, I just don't believe.
Its 1.20am.
Damnit, I'm wide awake.
I have a scratch running down my nose bridge to my nose.
Wonder how the hell it got there.
Sunday, September 16
I hate that monthly thingy.
It lowers my tolerance level and amplifies feelings that ought to be easily hidden and makes me do things that I regret.
Fuck hormones.
And school starts tomorrow.
Brand new classes, brand new classmates, brand new teachers, brand new trying to fit in yet again.
Yesterday wasn't a really good day.
Left the house around 1pm and met Danny, Boye, Justin and Egg at Somerset to pass Will's shorts to them before meeting Ant, Lena, Janice and Aaron at Orchard mrt.
We went Crystal Jade Kitchen so they could have ammonium noodles and dimsum then walked to Far East.
Walked and shopped, saw the signed FFAF picture outside one of the shops.
Then Lena had to go early to prepare for Colin's mom's birthday so the rest of us went to Lido to sit down.
Around 5, we went to walk around cause Jenny wanted a black hoodie but couldn't find anything suitable.
Ant and I then went to take the bus, Ant to head home, me to head to Cini.
Met with Danny and the rest there, played a little pool, stoned.
Had dinner at Yoshinoya which cost a whole 10 bucks, talked alot with Bev about her situation.
She decided to go ahead with it so the night was spent worrying about the reply she'd get for her questions.
We headed to Sembawang at around 10.20pm.
Met Guin and Xiang there and bought tickets for 'I Now Pronounce You Chuck And Larry'.
Boye, Danny and I waited at the mrt station for Xin and talked bout pretty in depth stuff.
When Xin finally arrived, we went to join them in the cinema.
The show was pretty funny, taught quite alot too.
But I don't think that the ethics of the movie can be applied to reality at the moment.
It was Macs after for a post-midnight snack before walking to Danny's.
Bev was really out of it but I didn't know how to comfort her so we just left her alone.
The 12 of us camped out at Danny's till morning before Joel, Xin, Bev and I made a run for the mrt station under heavy rain and got drenched.
Came back home, fell asleep before 8 and got up at 4pm.
I logged into Maple at Danny's to transport my character.
I know I shouldn't. I know I shouldn't have but I did.
I did and it hurt.
Perhaps its my hormones playing the part in amplifying the pain?
I sure hope so, shit like this always happens when it comes.
When she pmed me on maple, my god you should've seen how happy I was.
When we talked, I couldn't stop grinning even though I was in a roomful of people.
When she mentioned that she would've disbanded her guild today had she had the money, you should've seen the worry and concern for her etched on my forehead.
When I went to forums to put my weapon up for sale and I read the guild threads at the same time, you should've seen the blade that cut into my heart again and again and again.
Can you say "Ouch"?
How I wish I could just snap my fingers, and forget everything that ever happened or treat it as if it meant little to me.
My teacher once read my palm and told me I was loyal, I think I'm just stupid.
When will I wake up? The dream's already over.
Faith Hill - Let Me Let Go
I thought it was over, baby
We said our goodbyes
But I can't go a day
Without your face
Going through my mind
In fact, not a single minute
Passes without you in it
Your voice, your touch
Memories of your love
Are with me all of the time
Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul
Let me let go
I talked to you the other day
Looks like you made your escape
You put us behind
No matter how i try
I can't do the same
Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
It just isn't right
I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road
Let me let go
Let me let go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul
Let me let go
The lights of this strange city are shining
But they don't hold no fascination for me
I try to find the bright side baby
But everywhere I look
Everywhere I turn
You're all I see
Let me
Let me let go, baby won't you
Let me let go
It just isn't right
I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road
Oh let me let go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
You're still in my soul
Let me let go, why don't you
Let me let go
Let me let go
Saturday, September 15
Waiting for lunch to be cooked then gonna go eat and head out the house.
Hope I'm not late for the 1.30pm appointment.
I didn't wait for Rae, went to sleep at 2.30am. She msned me at 3.30am saying she was gonna ask me to clock with Fen and herself. *Shrugs* She's on 'away' mode sleeping now. Miss her.
Lina(Nycki)'s favourite song.
Big Brovaz - Baby Boy
From the day that I saw you, I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistry we felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a year we spent together
How it’s been, what we went through
Although we’ve had our little ups and downs
We’ve still pulled through
Baby girl you’re my world my everything
I wanna lace you with diamonds and every ring
Give you everything you dream and fantasize
Cause you can tell me that you love me
Looking in my eyes
You keep it real with me, I keep it real with you
You keep on loving me, I’ll keep on loving you
Keep doing what you do, I feel your whole aura
And I can’t wait to hook up again tomorrow baby - what
My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.
Everytime I look at you,
I can’t believe I’ve found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that I spend with you
You make me believe I have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine
Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling this was meant to be
Without you I’d be lost, I need you next to me
Preferably in the house full of luxuries and little kids
From day one I was sprung, knew you was gonna be one
Cause my heart spoke for the very first time in a long while
And every time you smile, I can see us walking up the aisle with you
carrying my child C’mon
My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.
If you were to go, I don’t know
You’re the only one who sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes my heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love
Ever since the first time, that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you waz gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside, when you’re not by my side
You’re the only girl that’s on my mind
I never knew a love like this, a love so strong
A vision so picture perfect it could never be wrong
Along the way, you’re gonna see you belong with Jay
I might have to marry you one day baby eh
My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.
My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.
Its 1.02am in the morning.
Got back from towning with Sze, Ant and Lena.
Met Lena at Suntec, then Ant came and we walked one entire round round Suntec's basement before deciding on New York, New York at Citylink for dinner.
Had 'Brats with bacon and cheese' for dinner.
We kept sharing and tasting each other's dishes, Ant had 'Big! Big! Breakfast' for dinner!!
rofl.
We found out that my brats went well with the cabonaras Lena and Sze were having so I traded my brats for their pastas.
After dinner we just sat, talked, laughed and crapped.
Then I took the bus to Serangoon with Ant and switched bus to head home.
Pretty tired now but I'm waiting for the other half of The Da Vinci Code to load so I can finish watching it.
Its nice meeting up and hanging out again.
Looking forward to doing it again tomorrow(technically today)!
Ant, wear the vest tomorrow(technically later) and what's that show I was supposed to watch on youtube again?
Lena, send me whatever song that you wanted to send me.
I enjoyed today, partially cause Rae and I talked, joked and laughed alot. It really felt like old times, and old times were good. She's online now for zak. Dunno if I should wait for her to come back on msn to chat or not.
Ink stained fingers promise everything, and nothing,
And therein lies the story.
Its no easy sentiment, a conscious effort, to save the last
I love you just the way you are,
So don't give up just yet,
And I know its hard,
When its so hard, when its so hard
Forgive me, forgive me
Ink stained fingers promise everything, and nothing,
And therein lies the story.
Its no easy sentiment, a conscious effort, to save the last
I love you just the way you are,
So don't give up just yet,
And I know its hard,
When its so hard, when its so hard,
Its easy to be the quitter
Don't give up,
So don't give up
Wednesday, September 12
Hmm, its not so painful this time round talking to you.
My cheehin's right, you just don't want to lose me as a friend.
But I'm sorry, I can't go back while you're with him even though you said it was all business.
I still miss you.
Spent the better part of yesterday in school for FYP labwork yet again.
10am till 3.30pm.
Then I took 966 from Woodlands interchange all the way to Marine Parade to meet Sze and Min at Sze's place.
Then the three of us brought little Forrest down to walk from Sze's to Kenny Rogers.
Forrest is still really cute even though he's grown quite a bit.
We had Kenny Rogers (mashed potatoes, chicken, mac&cheese) before heading to Gelare (waffles, maple syrup, ice cream) for half price waffle day.
It was already dark before we decided to walk back to Sze's place.
Poor Forrest was so tired out that at some points, he sat down and refused to budge.
So cute la he.
Finally got back to Sze's, watch the last bit of the Mighty Ducks on Disney Channel, then min and I took 43 home.
After the Mighty Ducks was Hannah Montanna.
I need to watch that. ._.
I think I fell asleep in the bus with my mouth open.
So embarrassing.
Old problem or new problem?
Somehow I'm afraid of the answer cause I'll lose both ways.
Its just a matter of which loss hurts more.
From First To Last - Secrets Don't Make Friends
This place is a bloodbath
And won't be taken alive
We stand alone
Under fictitious skies
You were always my enemy and carefully crafted my demise
Our hearts beat strong under fictitious skies
You were always my enemy, suck the life out of me
Your words are deadly weapons
Killing me, destroying me
Your words are deadly weapons
Scatter my brains across the wall
You were my compass
Leading me to nowhere fast
Promises were lonely roads
I followed you down like a map
You were always my enemy and carefully crafted my demise
Our hearts beat strong under fictitious skies
You were always my enemy, suck the life out of me
Your words are deadly weapons
Killing me, destroying me
Your words are deadly weapons
Scatter my brains across the wall
Fuck you
Secrets don't make friends
Secrets don't make friends
Secrets don't make friends
Secrets don't make
Your words are deadly weapons
Killing me, destroying me
Your words are deadly weapons
Killing me, destroying me
Your words are deadly weapons
Scatter my brains across the wall
Secrets don't make friends
Secrets don't make friends
Secrets don't make friends
Secrets don't make friends
Monday, September 10
So I finally fell asleep around 5am on Saturday morning after watching Ratatouille.
Its a pretty good show and the rat's pretty adorable.
Came online around 1pm on Sat and chatted with Josh.
Asked him along and we both met Guin, Xiang, Will, Fen, Jac, Boye, Dandan and Gigi at Plaza Sing at 2.30pm.
Bev, Danny and Jolvin came soon after and we headed to Swensens so they could have lunch.
Xin came halfway through lunch and I was trying to solve Bev's Rubik's 3x3 cube.
At least I managed to get more than halfway through before giving up.
We had ice cream cake to comemmerate Fen's 13th birthday and then went down to the arcade at Dhoby mrt to say hi to Norad and Josh.
The guys ended up playing KOF so I went to walk around Plaza Sing with Bev, Fen, Jac, Xin and Dandan.
Met up with the rest when they were done KOFing and stood around for a long time outside Starbucks trying to decide where to go.
It was already 6.10pm when I had to go meet Janice for the Funeral For A Friend concert.
Bev came to Raffles Place with me where we got lost and ended up eating carrot cake and talking in some uluated place.
Jenny called me at 7+ saying that the opening acts were.. Opening.
So went walking, trying to find Far East Square on my own.
Ran into two guys who were also looking for Far East Square and eventually, the 3 of us made it there.
The FFAF concert was spectular.
Although we stood a little to the side, we still could see most of the stage.
I think I was the most hyper one compared Aaron, Geraldine and Janice.
There were a bunch of girls who were nuts la.
They were screaming "Streetcar!" and "We love you Gareth!" throughout the entire thing.
After the concert, we talked, walked and laughed all the way to Clark Quay mrt station where I took the train to Dhoby to catch up with Guin and the gang.
Jac, Fen, Xin, Dandan, Danny, Boye, Xiang, Guin, Will and I then headed to the usual Sun Plaza in Sembawang to watch 'Apartment 1303', some horror flick.
It was a stupid show really.
I was sitting in between Boye and Xin and kept sniggering, laughing and making jokes during the movie.
The plot sucked, effects weren't scary, make-up was lousy, and I even managed to make fun of the scariest parts of the movie.
Then we went to sit, talk and eat at Macs before walking to their houses.
En route, we got stopped by two cops who saw us jaywalk.
It was a pretty big group so they took our contacts and wrote down our IC numbers.
After that, we were free to go.
Xin and I went to Danny's and then we met Boye and headed to the basketball court to wait for the rest.
They took an awefully long time and we hall a ball of the time when they finally reached.
Played basketball till 6+am and then Xin and I headed for the mrt.
Took the mrt to Toa Payoh cause I wasn't tired, then took a bus all the way home.
Even though I got home at 8am, I only slept at 10am, after breakfast.
Got up at 7.30pm, watched Bruce Almighty, then went back to sleep at 10pm.
Fiona(fylx) woke me up at midnight and I couldn't fall back asleep until 3.30am, after reading.
Got up this morning at 10.20am after a really bizzare dream.
Body's all sore and aching from basketball.
Its now 12pm and I have FYP lab at 1pm.
Better head off now.
Funeral For A Friend - Streetcar
Hello?
And there's the rub,
And we can talk for a while,
But I have sweet nothings to say,
You don't want me anyway
You don't want me anyway
So why?
Why should I stay?
So goodbye to you and your life
Your new best friends
Your confidence
And I'll be here when you get home
Sitting half way
Away from nowhere,
Praying for lips to touch
Holding myself,
For a second
Just to catch you smile
On this ride.
So goodbye to you and your lies
Two months, eight weeks
Your new best friends
Your confidence
Turn my hours into days
And I'll be here when you get home
When you get home
So goodbye to you and your lies
Two months, eight weeks
Your new best friends
Your confidence
Turn my hours into days
And I'll be here when you get home
When you get home
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
I can't feel the same about you anymore
It's just like you said
It would be
It's never easy
I can't feel this way about you anymore
It's just like you said
It would be
It's never easy
I can't feel the same
I can't feel this way
I can't feel the same about you anymore
Without you anymore
I can't feel this way
I can't feel the same about you anymore
Without you anymore
Without you anymore
It's never easy, without you anymore
Saturday, September 8
Its 1.40am in the morning and I've finally watched 'The Notebook'.
I remember Rebby talking about it in sec 4, saying how sweet it was.
Shows like these make you go, "So that's what love is."
And then those who are single start pondering about their own lives, hoping to have a fraction of what the characters in the movie have.
That connection, that spark.
The feeling's spectacular, indescribable, magical.
I felt it once.
Now its gone.
Rae, don't be sad and surprised that I still have feelings for you.
Its just who I am.
Honestly I've never been able to fully 100% let someone go.
I just store the feelings in a box and shelve them.
They're still there though, no matter how much I try to forget, no matter what distractions I may have.
I don't think I'll ever forget, even on my deathbed or whatever.
That's how much each one means to me.
Wednesday, September 5
A clip from one of my favourite tv shows, Sue Thomas: F.B.Eye
Written by Michael W. Smith, recorded by Emilt Dragoman - Pray For Me
Here is where the road divides
Here is where we realize
The sculpting of the Father's great design
Thru' time you've been a friend to me
But time is now the enemy
I wish we didn't have to say goodbye
And I know that thru' it all
The hardest part of love is letting go
But there's a greater love that holds us
Pray for me and I'll pray for you
Pray that we will keep the common ground
Won't you pray for me and I'll pray for you
And one day love will bring us back around
Painted on a tapestry
We see the way it has to be
Weaving thru' the laughter and the tears
But love will be the tie that binds us
To the time we leave behind us
Memeories will be our souviniers
Won't you pray for me and I'll pray for you
Pray that we will keep the common ground
Won't you pray for me and I'll pray for you
And one day love will bring us back around
Again
Tuesday, September 4
Saturday
Xiang, Guin and the guys called in the afternoon asking if they could dump the food at my place.
I told 'em okay but they called later cancelling.
So mum and I went down to the Comex convention at Suntec and I got a bunch of stuff.
80GB hard disk, creative headphones, a 1GB storage Zen Stone.
Mum then brought me to New York, New York at Citylink for a drink and a chance to rest our feet.
We talked about the US trip that she and dad had planned for us at the end of the year.
I only wish that some buddies could come along too, it'd be a hell lot more fun.
Was supposed to meet Xin, Sue and Jol at 6pm at Pasir Ris but I was still having my double chocolate shake at 5.50pm.
Smsed them to say I'd be late but it turned out that Xin'd be late too, and she was at City Hall but had to head home to change first.
Went down to Pasir Ris from City Hall and met Sue, Jol and Strstr at the mrt station where we waited for Xin.
She arrived shortly after and we went down to NTUC to buy snacks.
Xin overstuffed the shopping basket then we took a bus down to Downtown East where Dandan and her friend met us in Cheers.
The counter lady checked my IC when I bought ciggs.
Kinda humiliating. Do I really look that underaged?
So we walked down to the beachside bbq pit.
Before I could do anything, my cheehin Bev came running up to me and we started playing.
Maaaan I miss messing around with Bev. (:
Scandal Guin, Xiang, Will, Danny, Boye, Justin, Egg, Nick, Nick's gf Depfanie, Cheehin Bev, Xin, eskayJac, Fenny Fen, Eunice, Uncle SS, Auntie Lyndey, Fucker Sue, R0ti, Zoomx, Humper Dee, Jolvin, Joel, Daniel (hokage), Charcoal, Gigi and some others were there that night.
Gigi, Joel, Daniel, Charcoal, Fen, Jac, Xin, Danny, Boye, Will, Justin, Nick, Nick's gf Dapf, Bev, one more person and I stayed over.
Spent the earlier part of the night chatting and catching up with the guys I haven't seen in a long time.
We cut Guin's cute peach penguin cake and sang 'Happy Birthday' so loudly that people 10 pits away could hear us.
Sunday
Then past midnight, Guin's mom came and had a really open talk with the guys at the pit which involved my err, dress sense and sexual orientation.
It made me kinda uncomfortable, so I grabbed a Carlsberg and hightailed over to where Bev, Xin, Jac and Fen were sitting on a bench some distance away.
Sat and drank quite a bit with the 4 of them.
They all drank the beer I brought over, too lazy to get their own.
Drank about 3 cans?
The only thing I hate about drinking is that I have to visit the loo alot.
Thanks to those who kept going with me. =x
Stopped drinking when my vision couldn't keep up with the turning of my head.
But then again, we ran outta beer.
Xin and a stoned me decided to go back to bbqing.
My reactions were slightly slower but I was still pretty sane.
Xin, however, was abit off.
She almost burnt her hands on the grill while bbqing mushmellows.
And she kept saying "I'm not drunk" when all we accused her of being was high.
Rofl!
Charcoal, Joel and a few others came over to chat and bbq with us too.
Charcoal is like the bbq master, he cooked practically everything for us to eat.
After the parents left, they brought out the Martell.
I had like 2 drops of it and it bloody burnt my throat.
Gigi got seh after the Martell.
We bbqed till about 4am where it started drizzling.
I suggested we packed up and it started to pour just as we got our stuff together.
Left the food under the bqq pit, then headed for the nearby toilet for shelter.
Stood there for awhile before we decided to use the large mat we had to shelter ourselves and walk to the Macs at Downtown East so we could all sit properly.
They all got under the mat with the exception of Danny, Guin, Xin and I, and we all walked to Macs.
There wasn't anyplace to sit and Macs so the rest lounged around at the foyer while Danny and I scouted the place.
We found space at a closed coffee shop and sat playing 'Murderer' from 4+am till 6.30am.
Washed up and headed to White Sand's Macs for breakfast.
Danny was so nice, he bought me a Big Breakfast.
Parted ways at 7am.
I only had to be at Marina Square at 10.30am so I took the train with Joel, Fen and Jac to Boon Lay.
The three of them alighted one by one and I took the train back to Bugis before alighting at City Hall to meet Kwei Lin.
We then spent the entire day scooping Mango ice cream with added Omega-3 for the public and explaining how the projects SAS have done are good for people.
My shift was supposed to end at 2.30pm but I ended up staying till 6.30pm.
Was so shagged that I kept falling asleep whenever sat down and I got really irritable.
Poor Kwei Lin got scared of me I think, cause I told her not to disturb me and just sat there stoning and getting pissed.
Then headed home, showered, had dinner and fell asleep around 8+pm.
Yesterday, Monday
Woke up at 11am and met Ganma(Mrs Ng) and Min at Kovan's Pizza Hut for lunch.
Sat and ate and talked then Lyn came.
Talked somemore, relived some past memories, then headed to Hougang Mall for awhile before heading home.
I charged the Zen Stone up then headed to Plaza Sing to meet the LBV-tians, Ting, Ling, BangYong, Eno, D4rk, S0ul.
Sat and watched Ling play Audition for awhile at PcBunk then headed to Swensens where they had dinner.
I left before they ate and went to Cini to meet Ant and Jol for pool.
Fiona and her bf Alex came later then we just played pool till 9+.
Went down to the food court for fish soup, remet the LBV-tians, and headed home.
Today
Been on the computer the entire day, watching movies and defragging my com.
'Criminal Minds' is on now.
Shall go get my crime show fix for the week.
(:
Trying to sell off the Zen Stone.
Its not up to my expectations. 
Zen Stone
Black Zen Stone, 1GB storage, comes with a grey Zen Stone skin.
It retails for $69 and the skin costs $15
Both the Stone and skin for $80 anyone? Its still brand new.